October 18th, 2017

Outside, trying to get home. Help a lady and her kid-she has a lot of stuff. She goes to work and I hang out with her kid.

Running across a field, some kid tries to fight me and I break his leg.

A big plane passes by and I use a wand to clean up the mess.

October 17th, 2017

In a bar, sitting in the back. A band starts up, punk and not bad. There’s a good sized crowd. I’m not really dressed for the occasion. I get closer, and some guy spills his drink over me. I toss it back on him. The band is not very loud, and people are complaining. I tell them to move the pa closer. I go up on stage and ask the guitarist to turn up- he whines about feedback and his ears. Go back to the bar-the place is empty. The owner buys me a shot as thanks for helping.

October 16th, 2017

At a dance club, sitting at a table. The lights go out, and a guy comes to reset them. I move to a different place and lay on a table. They’re playing great music, but my back hurts so I can’t dance. E and S are, and having a great time. Another circuit blows, and the dj comes out and resets it. I tell him to leave the lights off. Most people have left, and a few women come parading through. I get up and walk towards the door.

October 13th, 2017

In a small practice room at Les Claypool’s, working on a quiet thing. Loud next door, look in and some kid is shredding on Ler’s rig. Walk in and tell him I can get better tone through mine. Walk over to Les’ rig and ask him if I can play it.

What’s next?

It’s hard to say-will this be the time gun control gets pushed up to the fore? Will the shoe drop on  something else? Tom Petty and Monty Hall died, and Hef. And a bunch of people known only by their friends and families. Until now. S got the apt people to put their flags at half-staff.

Gamelan tonight-not many people showed up. Friday: office move day. Quiet weekend-M to church for interview, plant flowers, bins, church Sun., bbq, band, market, home, laundry. So, so exciting. In new cube-no window, a bit enclosed for my taste. Taking C to a show Weds. Big fires in Ca.

Links: The End of EmpireThe Growing Irrelevance of President Trump, What the Second Amendment is really about

Page 23, Sentence 5: “The no-ship and its mortal contents could only be classified as a major effort.”, Chapterhouse: Dune

Listening to:

The Residents, David Bowie, Robert Rich, Brian Eno, Supadupa Marimba Bros, Peter Tosh, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Brahms, Sigur Rós, Alemayehu Eshete, Black Sabbath, Kohachiro Miyata, Batch Gueye Band, Anonymous 4, Roger Eno, Puccini, Allan Holdsworth, Henry Cow, Gamelan, Thomas Dolby, De Facto, Brian Eno & Jon Hassell, Pink Floyd, Steve Reich, Philip Glass, Gong, Heath Yonaites & KM Krebs, Ambrosia, Eno & Byrne, Built to Spill, Tori Amos, Mekons, Djinnestan, Adam Trainer, i-tal, Slayer, Philip Glass, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Allan Holdsworth, Loren Nerell, Philip Glass, Edward Elgar, fIREHOSE, c.krumov, return to forever, Piotr Ilyitch Tchaikovsky, Satomi Saeki And Alcvin Takegawa Ramos, Gyudmed Tantric Monastery, Sunn O))), Todd Rundgren, Tori Amos, Thomas Dolby, Throbbing Gristle, Skinny Puppy, Latin Playboys, Carmelo Giudice, R Carlos Nakai, Steve Roach, Weezer, Brian Eno (x2), Veruca Salt, Shakuhachi, Jefferson Starship, Gentle Giant, Todd Rundgren, Earth, The Melevi Ensemble, Harold Budd, Hawkwind, U2, Monks of Gyütö Tantris College, Philip Glass, Carlos Santos, Anoushka Shankar & Karsh kale, Amorphous Androgynous, Gyorgy Ligeti, Vangelis, Black Sabbath, Gamelan Mitra Kusuma, Music of China, Hawkwind, Vangelis, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Roger Powell, Dead Can Dance, Weezer, Anonymous 4, Grateful Dead, A Beautiful Machine, Alexei Borisov, Various, Fishbone, Rusty Crutcher, Fripp & Eno, Megadeth, Molly Hatchet, Ravi Shankar, Emergency Broadcast Network, New Order, Laurie Anderson, Throbbing Gristle, Funkadelic, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Emergency Broadcast Network, Sneaker Pimps, The Flaming Lips, Edie Brickell & New Bohemians, French Frith Kaiser Thompson, Deftones, Romeo Void, The B-52’s, Eno-Byrne, Material, Talking Heads, bartok, Yo-Yo Ma & Emanuel Ax, Massive Attack, Melvins, Todd Rundgren, Steve Roach, Jefferson Starship, Japan, Piotr Ilyitch Tchaikovsky, King Crimson, Gentle Giant, Allan Holdsworth, Todd Rundgren, Brian Eno & Larajii, Mogwai, Vidna Obmana, Blue Oyster Cult, Lou Harrison, Sly & Robbie, A Beautiful Machine, The Residents, Melvins, U2, The Orb, Adam And The Ants, C.P. McDill, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Soft Machine, U2, Jefferson Starship, Thomas Dolby, Miles Davis Quintet, John Coltrane, Rush, Al Gromer Khan, Brian Eno and Jah Wobble, K.M.Krebs, Orbital, Benedictines of Mary, Kansas, Jean Michel Jarre, Godspeed You! Black Emperor, Todd Rundgren, Gary Numan, Kraftwerk, Coyote Oldman, A Beautiful Machine, Thomas Dolby, Underworld, Peter Gabriel, Veruca Salt, art of noise, Jonn Serrie, Weezer, David Hudson, Zakir Hussain, Primus, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Brian Eno & David Byrne, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Bulgarian State Radio & Television Female Vocal Choir, Beastie Boys, Wishcollapse, David Arkenstone, Lagrima, Brian Eno, Chris Breemer, Anugama, Philip Glass, Brian Eno

October 10th, 2017

At home, there’s a huge storm coming. We have to go to a shelter. which is close by. We go and I watch the storm track in realtime. It goes right down the coast, very fast. We go back home and everything is OK. Walk through and look around.

October 8th, 2017

At church, going to go and listen to the sermon. No pants, so walk across the space with a footrest across my middle. Sit down one row back on the right. Listen to the minister-she has a red cap that’s a stepped cone.

October 7th, 2017

At an in-line skate race, watching the girls go. It’s a tricky course. Race in the men’s. We all go onstage for the awards, I stand with my friends. Someone passes out T-shirts for a team race with everyone. I have to drive home, so I might not race.

At home, cleaning and getting ready for a party. There are gnats everywhere. I try to shoo them out the door and get most. Go back in and the tree is up. There are some yellowjackets in the house and I warn everyone and close the door. One comes in under the window and gets covered in candy. I’m able to get it out.

October 6th, 2017

In a bus Brian F and someone are fake wrestling. I’m in the way and get hit. Go to the front.

Watching Sabbath sound check. Ozzy hides in back then comes on. One bank of lights aren’t on. He comes back and wants to know why. One tech didn’t put the fader back up. Ozzy swats his butt. I tell him he should go way downstage rather than hide. Show starts, he’s behind a huge synth and other people are singing. Pull way back and around the stadium.

Driving around, talking about how Tim Tebow is still living in Dublin OH, because it’s a dump. We say where we’d live if we were that rich-Laguna, south of France. Drive past a little kid, stop and ask if he’s ok. He says he’s trying to get somewhere and I’d lost. I ask him if he can get home and he says yes, so I tell him to do that. Drive to a homeless camp up a hill in a field to pick up some guy-I have to be at school on 6 mins. He’s not there.

October 5th, 2017

At US, walking around. There’s a big storm, lots of lightning. A bolt comes very close and we all drop our stuff and run. We can see once coming right on top of us and scatter. Go back and start picking up things.

At a hotel, go through reception and up to the room, there’s a maid in there. I go back downstairs to get my bags.

October 4th, 2017

Walking in a park with a guy. He has a football and we start throwing it around. The valve is messed up, and I have to blow it up every time. He sees some cops, panics, and gives me one of his joints to hold. It starts falling apart, and I toss it behind some grass by a fence as I’m walking away. On the other side of the park the cop is hassling some guys. I walk around some piles of laundry, trying to look like I have a purpose.

October 3rd, 2017

Walk into a synagogue with the family, sit on the side. The service starts, we try to follow. The words to a song are showing next to us. Everyone lays down, have to make room. Finally kids lay lines of salt to the front. We leave and E goes to a well and talks to someone.

Fall, fall, fall. Fall is here.

Just don’t know. At all. I’m so tired of it. Politics, weather, endless stuff.

Ok, so weekend-meeting, C’s girlfriend over, the usual, church, more stuff. It’s Tuesday, no, Wednesday. Rainy, and some thunder! Started using the Kronos now that it’s set up. Work from home Thurs., E has a dental thing. M has the lightest schedule ever. E went through the dental thing fine-work, dinner, bed. I’m really tired. Still tired, and I’ll probably be more tired after pissing the weekend away shopping. Shopping drains my energy.

And now Monday-we’re tragically short of ca$h. Please tip. Thanks in advance. Weekend: shop, take a break, shop. That helped a little-also looking down instead of around when walking. Practice music, starting on a toy piece. C’s GF came over again. Got a coffee grinder and a machine. Sat. mkt on Sun for the Supadupa Marimba Bros., shop, more music. I’m trying to get a little practice in every day-shaku, didge, keyboard, guitar, Kronos-it really has some nice sounds. Having it out and available helps too. Now I need to do the same with exercise…

And it’s Wednesday. Lovely Fall weather. We’re moving offices end of next week-just down 2 floors for a bit, then somewhere else. They’re renovating the 9th floor to look like Quest circa 2005 at the Aliso buildings-bare ceilings with ducts and wires, polished concrete, open plan, fishbowl meeting rooms. Lots of lounging areas, though. Now all they need is the 2 story fishtank and pool table…

Friday, Puerto Rico is a mess, Mount Agung in Bali is rumbling-go here for on the ground info. I’m reading the Dune series, and there’s a lot in there from then that’s relevant now.

Weekend-worked out Fri., shop, help M, workout.

Page 23, Sentence 5: “Many among the early crowds of that winter day had noted his passage. “, Children of Dune

Listening to:

Rage Against The Machine, C. Reider, Claypool Lennon Delirium, Babe The Blue Ox, Edie Brickell & New Bohemians, Aphex Twin, Mystified, The Residents, Alice in Chains, The Crystal Method, Primus, Orbital, Constance Demby, Art Of Noise, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Steve Winwood, Rage Against The Machine, Henry Wolff, ancy Hennings, Material, Bob Marley, Brian Eno, System Of A Down, Brian Eno (x2), Gamelan, Melvins, Mountain, Turkish, Todd Rundgren’s Utopia, The Residents, Indian, Mogwai, art of noise, Yes, Philip Glass, Black Uhuru, Renaldo & The Loaf, Steve Story & Celia Bourez, Steve Reich, Bulgarian State Radio & Television Female Vocal Choir, Abdullah Ibrahim, Tom Tom Club, David Sylvian, K.M. Krebs, Philip Glass, Brian Eno, Megadeth, Tuu, Brian Eno, Dominatrix, Todd Rundgren, Kodàly and Janàcek, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Dip Tse Chok Ling Monastery, Sigur Rós, Jeffrey Fayman & Robert Fripp, Deuter, Eric Cook, Veruca Salt, Hawkwind, Karawitan, Beastie Boys, Gentle Giant, The Clash, Xpando, The Pura Paku Alaman Yogyakarta, Henry Cow, Steve Reich and Beryl Korot, Pink Floyd, Alemayehu Eshete, Stereolab, Bill Bruford, Dante Bucci, Babe The Blue Ox, Philip Glass, Alien Skull Paint, Philip Glass, J.S. Bach, Sigur Rós, Philip Glass, Yo La Tengo, Veruca Salt, E. Cook, Laurie Anderson, Chris Breemer, Anthrax, The Residents, Vidna Obmana, Gamelan Orchestra of the Yogyakarta Royal Palace, Morphine, Kodály Quartet, art bears, Genesis, Primus, Robert Fripp, Robert Rich, Laurie Anderson, The Laziest Men on Mars, Yo-Yo Ma & Emanuel Ax, R Carlos Nakai, Heath Yonaites & KM Krebs, Tom Waits, The Clash, Black Sabbath, Sneaker Pimps, Mozart, Claypool Lennon Delirium, avn, Jeff Beck, Philip Glass, Henry Cow, Mystic Eyes, Todd Rundgren, Cream, gamelan, Babe The Blue Ox, Earth, The Future Sound Of London, Black Sabbath, Watazumi Doso, Neu!, Arcticology, The Aphex Twin, Curved Air, Fripp & Eno, Gamelan, Roger Powell, Mystified, Neil Young, Jethro Tull, Time Zone, Jakszyk Fripp and Collins, Ambrosia, Philip Glass, Michael Stearns, STSI Denpasar – NIA in Bali, Jenny Bird, Fripp and Eno, Michael Stearns, Talvin Singh, Grateful Dead, Emergency Broadcast Network, U2, Radiohead, Lili De La Mora, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Amorphous Androgynous, Justin Vanderberg , Aerosmith, Alastair Galbraith, Björk, The Smashing Pumpkins, Bill Bruford’s Earthworks, Venerable Showers of Beauty, The Flaming Lips, Rush

September 29th, 2017

Walk up to a desk to get a prescription filled. It’s Leslie B. She takes the paper, corrects spelling, and fills them. I don’t have money except a big bill, so I go to get more. She follows me, offering plane rides and other stuff instead.

At 30700, try to find an unoccupied bathroom to take a bath. One looks open, but Kathy Harrell is in there. I get my stuff and go to the master bath. It’s low and overflowing. I soap up quickly and rinse. All the water is gone.

September 27th, 2017

In the office, boss comes in and says I’m laid off. I’m super mad and walk out to the atrium. Call E and tell her. Walk back in and start clearing out my desk.

September 24th, 2017

Outside the apt, watch a storm coming. Go inside just as it approaches. Watch a tornado zoom just past. Feel the house move. Wake up on a bus with a bunch of people. Want to get off and get back home, but I have nothing. Finally get there and the house is gone. Talk to the rep.

September 23rd, 2017

Hurry to catch the train. Wait around while someone gets something from the driver.

Walk up a staircase to a building. Angle across, through a bunch of people. Open up a container that some guy has had there for years. Overhear him talking to someone. There’s a cart with solar panels that charges something. One of the panels isn’t hooked up-try to but the wires are very small. Watch a ST:V where they’re training for a thing with bad atmosphere and mercury and failing.

September 21st, 2017

At a gathering, we’re trying to make a tripod to heat something on. It’s not good, but we’re able to light it and put the stuff on. I’m trying to reach some place, and there’s stuff in the mixture. I stick my face into it, but nothing happens. We talk about what happened.

September 18th, 2017

Out flying kites-fly the quadline for awhile, then switch to the dualline. Not bad, solid basic stuff. It starts to get cloudy and thundering, so I land and we quick get all the lines inside.

Onward? The only way to go?

There is no going back, no matter how much you wish it. And sometimes I wish it. Other times just wishes. Don’t know what else to say-life and the world are what they are, and you have to be what you are, and work.

So, so smoky-can just barely see the St. John’s bridge from here: 9th floor of Montgomery Park. And ash everywhere. And there’s another big storm making its way across the Atlantic. Picked up a shakuhachi and Zoom recorder for $12, with a big credit from Google…pretty cool, though it took 2 years to get up to $200. Next is a case for my Kronos. Don’t need it quite yet. Weekend. Set up all the gear, books too. C’s gf came over, repacked the outside closet-mouse poop there. Big storm over Fla. Church, shop, tidy. Very tired today. Got the Zoom and the shakuhachi-nice 1.3, root end-was able to get a bitty tone after a bit of work, the Zoom works, but is a bit light-I prefer durable bits, like a SM58… S wants to play the Kronos-I let her from time to time-she really shouldn’t be playing keyboards… And now Friday-Dr’s, got a cortisone shot for my finger. It’s getting cooler in the mornings, but still a bit smoky.

Links: The First White PresidentSeason of SmokeReclaiming America’s Values

Page 23, Sentence 5: “The pony’s attention was so consumed by deciding, from moment to moment, where it should place all four of its hooves, that it seemed to forget there was an old man on its back.”, The System of the World

Listening to:

Gentle Giant, Darshan Ambient, Arcticology, fsol, Mogwai, Frank Zappa, Philip Glass, Kansas, Renaissance, The Humans, Herb Ernst, Brian Eno, A Beautiful Machine, Disturbed, Blue Oyster Cult, Hafíz Kani Karaca, Jean Michel Jarre, The Robert Fripp String Quintet, Throbbing Gristle, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Brian Eno (x2), C. Reider, Björk, Can, Time Zone, Bleep, The Who, Fishbone, Rage Against The Machine, Gamelan, The Future Sound of London, Diamanda Galas, Beastie Boys, Bill Bruford, James Gang, Gamelan, Byron Metcalf, The Waitresses, Shubert, Djinnestan, Brainscapes, The Art of Noise, Steve Roach, David Hudson & Sarah Hopkins, Martha Goldstein, Curved Air, Deftones, Philip Glass, Oingo Boingo, Brand X, John Coltrane, Faure, Robert Rental, Gamelan, Brian Eno, Jethro Tull, mayfairgrin, throbbing gristle, Philip Glass, Suicidal Tendencies, Rage Against The Machine, Built to Spill, Fripp and Eno, Todd Rundgren, Robert Fripp, Deuter, Stereolab, Rush, Material, William Edge, King Crimson, Aphex Rock, Anugama, Mystified, Brian Eno, New Order, Lou Harrison, art of noise, Jefferson Starship, Harold Budd, Brian Eno, J. S. Bach, Brahma, Eno-Byrne, Pere Ubu, Throbbing Gristle, Philip Glass, Anugama, Genesis, Brian Eno, Teges Kanyinan, u2, Schumann, Cream, fIREHOSE, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Oregon, Peter Gabriel, Mickey Hart, Roger Eno, Todd Rundgren, Jakszyk Fripp and Collins, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Earth, A Beautiful Machine, Steve Winwood, Henry Wolff and Nancy Hennings, Public Image Ltd, Zen Savauge, Primus, Thomas Dolby, Genesis, Larry Tyrrell, Yello, ZZ Top, Throbbing Gristle, Samuel Barber, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Camel, Laurie Anderson, Robert Rich, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Constance Demby, avn