Year: 2020

At a party, walk out to the back yard. People are hanging out in the porch and in the yard. I look at the neighbors’ and realize that I’m at a house 2 doors down from the Harrell’s! Wave at them. Walk back inside, talk to the host, and clean up some. I need to get a ride back to the city but no one is going. I ask for a ride to the train. No one-start walking.

In Long Beach? Walk up to the market with M to get almond croissants. It’s afternoon, so we don’t find any and they’ve left. Go up further-no joy. M goes back and I walk around to the cafe. Delynda calls to me from the 2nd floor and tells me to tell mom to wait a day. I see Uncle Ivor sitting there. Walk down the street and run into Mike K-say hi and continue. Climb up a wall to a parking lot as a shortcut home. Some girl in a car calls to me. The car is filled with marinade I kiss her-very salty and lick her nipples. She says to go up to her place. I go into the lobby and look at the notices and people on the wall. Go up and we want to get started, but people come in A witch gives her a drink and says she may look different. I go to leave and she tells some guy to try to hit me. He tosses something at me and evade it. He does it again and take it and put it in a library table’s drawer. It breaks and I go underneath and fix it. Smell smoke and pull up the carpet, look through the floorboards and see a furnace and smoke.

In an arcade. Playing a game where you push on levers and stuff as balls roll towards you on a ramp. Play a bit, then start just pushing the balls back up the ramp. They don’t like it, and I stop. Some boss guy comes over and tells me to leave. I ignore him, do the last balls and leave. Some worker follows me and tells me that boss is a dick. I say yeah and leave.

In my bedroom, moving things around. Push the tv and stereo back close to the wall. I hear a jet outside and a bird flies in. I know this is the sign for a visitation. I grab the bird and it dissolves into feathers. I turn to go to bed and someone picks me up and carries me. I say I love you and they take me up. (see animation of the chakras)

In a shop, talking with friends about why I decided not to take initiation. Look into the initiates’ room-can’t go in. Look at some books and think about my experiences.

At a friends’ house, writing a note about some girl they’re interested in. Look through a big magazine of stuff. Accidentally call a girl I want to see and she says they’re going to a club-=it’s 1 AM. I write it down and call my friend, but they’re asleep.

At school, walk through the campus and into a dorm. Go downstairs.

Looking at a small house, drive up, some car is chasing us. Pull over and follow it. Go on the street and look at the house-it’s nice. Walk around, someone says there’s a pig waste processing place close by. Look and see it down the hill.

Hanging out at home with Jerry J?, going to do some acid. We take it, and walk around waiting.

At a church with Earl T. We’re setting up something, and I go to get the guitar stringed. I get the first string on-it has odd circle hooks to hold it in place. I try to find the guitar case to get more strings, but it’s attached to a huge string of stuff. Earl says he does everything for the church, and that’s how he keep his stuff. Walk over to the entrance, and ask the pastor if he knows how many POC and LGBTQ folks are in the organization. He doesn’t I tell him that’s something he needs to know.

In Long Beach, walking from the 405 to downtown. Try to find a hummus place that’s on the way. Go into one place, but the man misunderstands me so I leave. Get hung up walking on a overpass that dead ends and need to cross with lots of cars moving fast. Backtrack, and some punk kids ask me if I need help. I’m typing the name of the place into my phone so I say no, but they’re persistent. I take off my shirt and walk away. Walk back to the place, but have to go down off another overpass. Hang down, then drop to the first level, then to the ground. Keep walking.

Getting ready to leave school-pack up my area. Go look for Peter V, who’s driving home. I look back and see that I forgot to disassemble the walls. I suggest we take a shortcut, but the ropes gut wants a cert. I drop down and walk up the hill. Go into the room and Pete isn’t there-I finally see him and we get into his car-put my stuff in the back seat. We leave and I realize my iPod is back in my room.

At school after break, arranging my room. Marybelle comes by and we hug and kiss. Go back to her room to arrange. I want her real bad. She says no, says I smoke too much pot. I lease as her friend arrives. Go to the cafeteria, lots of people there. Get food, go back to my room.

In the bedroom, watching a zoom meeting. One of the guys sits up and starts playing with himself, but blurred out. A bunch of frames of people having sex show up too. I’m like, “no way.”

In a store, Ian is behind the counter. I walk past, and suddenly I’m on the ground by the wall and naked. Someone says Ian took my clothes. I get up and go over there, glaring, and he runs out.

At the fancy house with gardens, walk up and into the main house. The man is leaving. Put back a pile of jeans that’s falling over. Go back to garden, many shovels lying around. Lady comes and says we have them all and she needs some. I offer to take some back, walk up and gather them. Walk with her to the main house, in the kitchen, an odd insect flies around, then another. I go back to the garden.

With some guy, we’re walking through a parking lot. He wants to kiss me and I realize he thinks I’m gay because I went out with him. I tell him and he’s disappointed.

Waiting in downtown Milwaukie/OHS for the bus. It comes but turns towards towards SOM Center. It’s not going to get Colin, and Mom and Matt and I talk about how to get Colin. We talk about whether Dad or I should get him. The roads are quite snowy.

Hanging out with Diane. Get into bed, I want to play. We lay there, then she gets up to do something.

Talking to the office designer about AIM’s offices. They show me the layout. It’s different, and I ask about it. They say it’s because the office has moved-over to Liverpool St. We walk over there-through a park-busy, knock over a sleeping guy’s bong. Dingy street, smallish standalone building. Go up and look around the offices-I’m in the utility room. Walk downstairs, walk back to the utility room and it’s big and off the lounge. Talk to Lesley, and walk back upstairs.

Breaking into a school, go around and start messing around. We see cops coming and start to leave. Get scared my wallet and keys are left behind. Climb up and they’re there. Leave and walk around to another entrance. Try to blend in with the people coming out of the elevator.

In a auditorium, walk through the rows. Someone gives me a fighter kite. Walk up to the balcony and start thinking about the song and how to play it. Walk over to someone talking to Eno about their work. He gets mad because I’m looking at the list of stuff this person did. Walk back over and start playing.

In the office, walk over to the printer, there’s dried up spillage everywhere. Several groups of people are going around play-acting some work-related thing. I ignore them and begin to sweep-move farther and farther away sweeping. Start back and gather used paper too. One group comes close and starts their show. I move back to where I started.

Take a few people to a field that the company owns. We walk towards the garden as I talk about it. There’s a tiger lurking and I tell people to be careful. We look over to another field as a good place to play, but a further one is better.

In a hallway, trying to get a chainsaw chain back on the saw while it’s running. The chain tangles and goes everywhere.

Going around trying to find a lost girl. Visit some homeless camps, see some women. Get on horses and go into the woods. There are trees with pythons in the branches waiting to drop down. Turn around to avoid them. Discover that if you stand in the stirrups you’re tall enough that they won’t drop. Struggle to get my stirrups on, the horse helps me get the reins back-I pat him. Continue on, drop off some supplies and return.

Walking around an office. It’s circular, go around the outside and into a hallway. Go back into the office

In my room, hanging out. There’s lots of people outside and I look out the window and up at the sky. It looks like there’s meteors, but they’re going in circles. They’re also colored.

In a stairwell, these girls are coming up the stairs and I have to stop them. They come up a little bit and I’m able to hold them back. More come and it’s harder. Finally a bunch come and they get behind me. I black out. (I see all sorts of faces and things)

At a reunion thing, I get me food and go sit. Steve P comes up and we chat. There’s lots of people.

In bed at 30700, back to the window. There’s lots of energy, and it finally makes it up to my neck in a big ball. I rise up and go higher until I break through to the other side. There are tons of symbols everywhere. I look at all of them. I settle back down. (The symbols continue, a bunch coming towards me-this means I’m thinking them.)

On Jackson, walking towards Lander. A car goes by me really fast, them another. I get to Lander and turn towards home. more cars speed down Jackson, and one crashes into a tree. I start towards home, and a car tries to pass another, and goes head on. Some old guy yells at the driver, and I start to jog towards Emery. Pass Emery, and cross the road.