Walking through UCLA to gamelan, a building is on fire. Go into a room, sit around, come out and the fire is out. Walk back to a house, go inside, a big earthquake hits. The house is shifting back and forth.
In a big meeting/lunch room. Go to one table, then move to a circle. Steve Pope walks by, and I see Ed Sourial looking over.
2013/12/27
Set up a drum kit, but flat, like a wall. I start to get it set up regular, and someone starts coming to do it instead. The hi-hat is odd. I get upset and leave.
Onstage playing a little drum.
2013/12/23
Watching a bright light come from my right towards me. It passes in front of me stops, and static snow comes out of it. I’m watching some creature in a small room going through things.
2013/11/22
Driving through an area by the freeway and the 224-single lanes and twisty turns. I see the exit and there are kids there. I stop and they want a ride to the store. They pile in and we get on the road. I go through a plant and stop at the store. We go in and I look around. The kids leave and I go too. My car has moved and is on. I freak out and try to reproduce the problem. A bunch of zealots, Marybelle too, come to talk to someone. I go into the house,then go into the backyard.
2013/11/15
Flying with someone, we go past a school and an abandoned factory. Then past a bunch of abandoned houses. We see an airstrip, but the pilot has trouble staying up and we miss the landing. Fly around a city and land by a garage. The pilot sits on a animal game and won’t move. I sit on another one and the owner comes over.
Again, again.
Well, another fall gamelan concert over-we played wonderfully. It was a small audience, though, but that’s not really why we play. Not much else is going on-work is stressful, and S is sick. I got a new work phone.
Recap: church, computer help didn’t, work, gamelan, S is sick, WFH Thursday, rehearsal Friday, new phone, concert in Beaverton.
Links: America Has Never Faced The Threat Posed by the Koch Brothers and Their Owned Republicans, Noam Chomsky | De-Americanizing the World, Beware: Huge Media Companies Are Selling Corporate Ideology as the ‘New American Center’ | Alternet, Poverty in America Is Mainstream – NYTimes.com, Chomsky: Why the Rest of the World No Longer Wants to be Like U.S. | Alternet, There Once Was a Time When the Super-Rich Needed a Middle Class to Be Successful — Not Any More | Alternet, this one is strong: Bam. Bam. Bam. The Lostness of Man.
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Nothing at all. I need sponsorship, though. Again out of ca$h, but OK. Having interesting experiences and a cool dream last night. Hopefully something will come of it-I need to start writing. Maybe I’ll fire up the essays by hand rather than by computer. If we all followed this stuff, and worked at it, the world would be a much better place. Left my kindle at church. Need to work out more.
Recap: M to MS dance, overnight, daylong retreat, t’ai chi, church-had to usher, S got a crown & we’re tapped-OK with help from angels, gamelan, help a church member with computer stuff, Erika to Maple Grove, t’ai chi, more computer work & fail, church.
Links: The Top 10 Conservative Myths, Lies of Plutocracy: Exploding Five Myths that Dehumanize the Poor, The Lies That Will Kill America | Alternet, The World Without US, GOP Still Worried About “Those People”, Paul Krugman: The GOP’s War on the Poor is the Central Issue of Our Time | Alternet, Naomi Klein: How science is telling us all to revolt
I had one for the on the brighter side, but I changed my password & I’m locked out of my work computer.
Odd not having rain in the fall
It’s been a week-not much to say. Tennis, t’ai chi, no church, S just had a cold, gamelan. M and I got the cold. Hopefully we’ll have more cash these 2 weeks, but I’m not counting on it. I just don’t think there’s the discipline to do it.
Really the same old-keeping the house clean, kids, work, gamelan. Don’t know what else to say. I work through stuff when I can, spotty exercise except for walking/riding to/from work, occasional t’ai chi, progress is being made, but slowly.
Links: Forward Progressives — I’ve Had It With the Radical “Religious” Right, Inside the Conservative Brain: Why Tea Partiers Are Desperately Afraid | Alternet, America’s New Employment Reality, A Nation of Wimps | Psychology Today, A Short Shutdown History: Billy Graham Broke Our Brains and (Inadvertently) Sold America to the Koch Brothers Who Folded the USA into a Moronic Religious/Political Delusion Called the Tea Party
2013/10/23
In the office, changing to a new cube, trying to put things away and get clothes.
crass or inappropriate?
I’m like a goddamn broken record about my posting frequency, or lack thereof. It’s been a bit over a week, so I think I’ll post, if only to get my post count up and prove that I’m a real blogger, rather than a poser or wannabe. Not a bad week, as weeks go-I like walking to work, I’m hitting the tennis ball better, gamelan is super awesome, and t’ai chi is great. Church was church, the work week has been fine. Salem has a cough.
The gamelan gig was at a warehouse in NW. Open bar, weird. We played OK, but the drinking did odd things to our mood. No matter. It was a busy day-church for t’ai chi, school, then the gig. We have a gig the 29th-Threnody, which gives me fits, because we play it rarely and my part is non-trivial. I was happier when I was playing slenthem…
Not really a whole lot else, I try to sleep on the train to work, and work on the train home. Not much time for reading, and I need to get more consistent at cleaning at home. Kids are great-I love them so much.
The train is fun-great people watching, and the occasional excitement. Not bad messwise-only been a few times I’ve had disastrous results. And the chance of meeting random people I know. There’s also a cricket ground next to the tracks in Beaverton, so it’s fun to see a slice of cricket on nice days. And it’s been nice-not much rain, and warmish.
Still trying to move ahead with ID-my pace of reading is slower, but I’m so deep into it that the knowledge is almost innate, and I’m making progress, I guess. One of the things Dr. Steiner says is that you really don’t want to discuss your work or your progress, so that’s that.
The recap: tennis & run to work afterwards, t’ai chi-one person, Harvest Festival, gamelan gig-“crass or inappropriate? How about both!”, church, fixed bike, but not riding (too dark in the morning without lights), church photos, gov’t shutdown is ovah, no ca$h, S is sick.
Links: The Obama Doctrine | Noam Chomsky, The Koch Brothers' "Samson Option", Moving Beyond the Structural Violence of Capitalist Nightmares-Buddhist Peace Fellowship / Turning Wheel Media, It's Going to Be a Scorcher … of a Century, How Christian Delusions Are Driving the GOP Insane | Alternet, Living the Orwellian Life, How Racism Drives the Zeal to Destroy Iran and Maintain Global Hegemony | Alternet, Last Hours of Humanity: We Appear to Be Warming the World into Its 6th Major Extinction Event | Alternet, Millions of Jobs, Trillions of Dollars: We Can't Afford the Republican Right | Alternet, How the South Is Holding America Hostage | Alternet, Chris Hedges: The Radical Christian Right and the War on Government – Chris Hedges – Truthdig, We are respectable negroes: Shutdown: The Republican Party is Possessed by a Hallucinatory Ideology. Those Outside of the Cult Cannot Understand Them., Rust Never Sleeps
2013/10/17
Walking downstairs at US, it’s a circular ares with potties-go in, then walk out again.
2013/10/9
Going through a bunch of receipts, adding them up. Getting more upset as I see what’s been bought and how much it is.
In a room, people are running around talking about a crazy cat & trying to catch it. I go over, pick it up and it likes me. I set it down and get its food bowl and it rolls over and opens its mouth. It’s a kitten, so I crush the cat food and add water.
Fall is here
I haven’t done this for awhile. Don’t know if it’s a long gap or not. But my motivation isn’t there, and work is a mess, and I’m really tired and easily fatigued. I think I need more than a day or 2 off every so often. I’m trying to stay active at work and riding my bike back and forth to the train. Not that any of this is helping my disposition-I guess I’m just reflecting the mood and malaise. I get home and any effort of any consequence just wipes me out. I think part of it is going to bed late and getting up early.
No matter-I think I’ll post this, just to say I did. No one except me reads this or anything, so it’s just vanity and a desire not to forget the events that make up a life.
Here’s the recap: tennis-hitting a bit harder, 7th grade work day, church meeting-contention, bridge collapse, 2 big tornadoes in OK, work from home Fri, S visit to Kindy, cleaning, park w/kids, dentist, gamelan, more contention, more gamelan, rearrange house, cleaning, church @ park, day off for Erika, work from home, last day of school, pool, C overnight, nickel arcade, church, birthday party, more work from home, no church, Milwaukie farmer’s market, back to work, cleaning, the tour, out of cash, drama about M’s trip, 4th of July @ friends’, other friends on the 5th, drive M to airport, church, back to work, tennis, C is in our room, visiting friends too, church, back to gamelan, M is home, work thing, church, C friends’ visit, work trip, big gamelan day, church, S playing, birthday, out of ca$h, hang out with S, church, (I missed a few weeks here-likely work, home, gamelan, church), $$$ from a gig, tennis, visit from E’s god Uncle, school work party, the whole Sarah Horn thing is touching me deeply, I think I’m making progress. Gamelan gig, church, first day of school, week off, another gamelan gig, back to work, parent meetings, tennis, church, run with M, C is sick, rummage sale, C to Opal Creek, teaching t’ai chi, help at school, ISS flyover at some point, cool and rainy-fall is here. The gov’t shutdown and debt ceiling. Upcoming gamelan gigs.
Links: We, the Vast Underclass, Must Rise Up Against Global Mafia-or Die, The Violence of Organized Forgetting, The United States Is Awash in Public Stupidity, and Critical Thought Is Under Assault | Alternet, Intellectual Dishonesty & The Death Of The Professional Left –, "The Efficiency Trap"—How Promoting Efficiency Means Sustaining a Broken System | Alternet, Chris Hedges Answers Questions from Viewers, The Case for Optimism Amidst a Political Wasteland of the Soul, How Successful Cooperative Economic Models Can Work Wonderfully… Somewhere Else | Alternet, There Are Good Alternatives to US Capitalism, But No Way to Get There | Alternet, Forward Progressives — The Conservative March Toward a Society of Sociopaths, The Rise of American Theocracy – Quiet Mike : Quiet Mike, Chomsky: America's Imperial Power Is Showing Real Signs of Decline | Alternet, Why Life in America Can Literally Drive You Insane | Alternet, Evangelical Corporations Try To Force Their Employees To Follow Their Religious Beliefs, Take a Close Look at Craziness of the GOP's Attempts to Destroy Obamacare — It'll Take Your Breath Away | Alternet, We're in a Post-Constitutional America: Our Country Is Going Sideways in Plain Sight, and Nobody's Saying Much About It | Alternet, Why Republicans Want Jobs to Stay Anemic | Common Dreams, Moyers: 50 Million Go Hungry Each Day | Alternet, The Corporate Right-Wing Agenda Is Driving Thousands of Americans to Attempt Suicide | Alternet, 8 Ways Privatization Has Brought Pain and Misery to American Life | Alternet, God and democracy: One nation, under nothing | The Economist, Crumbling American Dreams – NYTimes.com, What A Week Of Groceries Looks Like Around The World | RAW FOR BEAUTY, We're All Being Poisoned by Deregulated Capitalism, Why the Anger? | Robert Reich, Mankind: Death by Corporation, Part III – the TPP as Corporate Deathstar, Murdering the Wretched of the Earth, The Massacres in Egypt Are a Precursor to a Wider Global Conflict Between the Elites and the World’s Poor | Alternet, What Does it Mean to be an Outsider in a Capitalist Society? | Alternet, Chomsky: The U.S. Behaves Nothing Like a Democracy, But You'll Never Hear About It in Our 'Free Press' | Alternet, Will the American Right Kill Us All? | Alternet, . Welcome to the Age of Denial By ADAM FRANK… – Dominionism is destroying America, Can You Feel It? People are Getting More Tense as Anti-Human New Political Order Takes Shape | Alternet, 8 Reasons Young Americans Don't Fight Back: How the US Crushed Youth Resistance | Alternet, Labor Day Is a Scam To Keep You Poor and Miserable Forever, America Is More Terrifying Than Orwell’s Fiction | Alternet, 10 Ways America Has Come to Resemble a Banana Republic | Alternet, Shake a Stick in Post-Financial Collapse America, and One Hits Poverty, 10 Ways America Has Come to Resemble a Banana Republic | Alternet, Death by Corporation, Part IV: Dissolving the Planet for Oil, The Financial Crisis and the Second Great Depression Myth, The Biggest Assault on Our Democracy Is Coming from the Center of Our Own Government | Alternet, Jonathan Frazen: While We Are Busy Tweeting, Texting and Spending, the World is Drifting Towards Disaster | Alternet, The Origins of Our Police State, RIP, the Middle Class: 1946-2013 | Alternet, The Age of Confusion – Mass Manipulation, Propaganda and Frequency Prisons – Waking Times, Path to Autocracy: Could America Become a Police State?, 12 Signs America Is Insane | Alternet, Financial Core of the Transnational Corporate Class — Censored Notebook, Investigative Research, The Sick Ayn Randian War Against Everyone Who Isn't Rich | Alternet, GOP Launches Race War to Boost the 1 Percent | Alternet, Noam Chomsky: 'The Foundations of Liberty Are Ripped to Shreds' | Alternet, Five Ways Capitalist Greed is Ripping Off the American People | Alternet, Obedience to Corporate-State Authority Makes Consumer Society Increasingly Dangerous, We Now Live in World in Which No One Is Listening to the Planet’s Sole Superpower | Alternet, Forget Climate Change, We Must Prepare for a Catastrophic Climate Breakdown | Alternet, The theology of government shutdown: Christian dominionism | Mercy not Sacrifice, No Triumph for Austerity, Forget Climate Change, We Must Prepare for a Catastrophic Climate Breakdown | Alternet, We're Addicted to Economic Growth and It Will Be the Death of Us | Alternet, Colbert King: The tea party resurrects the spirit of the Old Confederacy – The Washington Post
2013/9/26
Outside, the moon is eclipsed by something. It moves away and towards us. It hovers over us.
2013/9/9
Looking through several folders of papers from my childhood. THe phone rings and it’s the police, they’ve found a leg bone that has DNA from either me, Mike K or Oliver. We give Oliver the phone to talk to him, and I ask Mike if he’s seen Jim lately.
2013/9/8
On an underground train, it’s small and going through tight spaces and turns. People are just jumping on from little niches in the tunnel.
2013/9/7
Getting ready to ice skate. They don’t have my size. The ladey goes back to get another pair and I watch the skaters. We comment on the ice and people aren’t making noise.
We’re on the tracks and there’s an out-of-control train coming. We’re trying to figure out how to stop it. It comes and we cut the power. Another one comes on another track and we cut the power too. We walk across the tracks and I yell that another train is coming. We avoid it and it crashes into another train. We walk up another track and get on top of the trian there.
Submit a bunch of designs and drawings for a presentation. We get ready and someone puts them up on the wall. One guy presents, then it’s my turn. I wait for everyone to come back.
2013/8/29
Playing with feedback-Hendrix is here doing the same. Put the guitar right up to the amp and pluck strings. There’s a tape running. We finish up.
2013/8/25
Outside the garage @ 30700? Planes are flying low from the NE. One passes, then another, all the same. I turn and watch them go, and start yelling at them to come get me. They start turning and one comes around and hovers. I go up to it and open the door.
2013/8/19
At 30700?, waiting for the parents’ bathroom. Some girl goes in, so I grab a roll of TP quick. She has nice boobs.
At some prom, get dressed up, then go out to the parking lot. I see Jacob H on the way out. Hang out by a car.
