Well, August’s almost done-(sigh) I am depressed. Oh well… It may just be that I’m lonely… I dunno-and I really don’t have anyone to talk to-chicken/egg & Catch 22 rolled into one-I need to make some sort of effort-I want to, but it’s SO difficult and I’m so tired. I think about four women right now, and a cloud of others and all the ones I’ve ever thought about weigh on me. Also all the other stuff in my life…Enough venting.
The past two weeks-saw that SF band-ran some errands then went to Smalls-killer drinks-one girl sat on my lap-but not the one I wanted. Audra DID call me the next day, but I had left for Baraka already. TOO BAD!!! It would’ve been nice to go with her. Baraka was nice, but the print was broken several times. Went to Foothill to appease some girl, & left Audra at the Loft. I should’ve stayed with her…we sat up later & listened to a kOOl new tune. Went to see Chris’ band-another late night-nice chat with Crystal. Got an Audiomedia II card & am starting to get into burning CD’s-changed my office around-Ken & Wolf were into burn some CD’s-watched Baraka. Went to a farewell party at the Blue-drank too much-chatted with Diane-mmmmm. Went to Satellite Lounge-Peggy was there! She remembered me! She’s dating Doug again (sigh) I’ll never find anyone…(sigh, sigh, sigh) And, as usual, laze, sleep, work, TV, eat, Loft, party, lotsa thoughts…I was rereading my old journals last night…Kinda fun.
Must work now.