change brings uncertainty

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Well, this is a long one, mostly because I haven’t been finalizing it regularly. I blame the lockdown. Anyways, it’s been uneventful in our household, but the human world is having a bit of a turn. No idea if this will mean lasting change, but there is certainly unrest. Cv19, plus protests equals unrest and uncertainty. Troubling politics and economic mayhem doesn’t help much. In any case, it’s scary and unsettling. I’m also getting close to my contract end, which makes me nervous.

Monday morning, start of a new sprint at work. Slept rather badly last night, didn’t want to get up…but I did. Achy back from working out. I’m in good shape, but also aging and don’t recover as quickly from things as when I was younger. Pretty quiet weekend, worked out, sold my Mirage, E got food, S was up late-starts school today.

Wednesday morning-time for coffee. Pretty quiet-a bit rainy, S is Zooming for school, not really motivated for w/o last night, worked late too. Sometimes feel oddly-disassociated, and sometimes like the walls are closing in. The house is staying pretty clean, and everything else is OK.

Sunday noon, time to think about lunch. Remote church, cleaned our bathroom. Pretty mellow-w/o Friday, tidied, laundry, vacuum Sat. Not much else…

Monday, noon. The days are sort of running into each other. Getting stuff done, but it’s not easy. Bailed on working out yesterday-had to pick up our food, and it didn’t go perfectly, so tired afterwards.

Wednesday, noon. The walls are closing in. There’s an old SF short story where that happens, but it’s because of no sleep rather than isolation. Went for a different run last evening with M-better, in some ways-that last hill is still tough, though. S wants to watch Coraline tonight. Now “sun over the yardarm”-having some gluhwein-got stuff done, but not deployed-that’s next.

Friday, work is done for the week. Mostly finished…I’ve been working late, so not tonight. It’s been wet and cool. Not much else going on. It’s a rent week, so short of $$$. We now have a cushion, and more once the gub’mint money gets here. I think I’ll wait until after August to do anything. Hopefully I’ll get an FTE or longer contract. Given that we’re in a massive uncertain spell, better to have savings and wait to see what happens before jumping into a house or some such. Read Snow Crash until late last night-on to The Diamond Age, then Cryptonomicon.

Wednesday noon, working. Yesterday was a mess-a complete loss as far as work goes. Good w/o, though, and fresh tortillas. Weekend was fine-quiet, shopping was about it. C’s birthday was on Monday. Trying to stay sane. Everyone is struggling.

Monday morning-ish. Tough sleep last night, achy legs, tired this morning. Mellow weekend, food shopping Sat., church, Mother’s Day, called my mom. Hot over the weekend, cooler now, good w/o’s. I don’t want to dwell on the outbreak or the election or anything else, especially here. I’m a Green, so nothing on the local primaries-I’m absolutely NOT voting for Jesse Ventura in the main. Maybe I’ll put my thoughts down after it’s all over.

Wednesday, noon. Same ‘ol… Skipped w/o last night-rainy, no motivation. Didn’t sleep well-need to get to bed earlier, that might help.

Friday. Rushing to prep for a code review-bleh. Worked out on Weds. evening. Not much else-we got our stimulus $$$, which went straight to savings. I’m actually saving. I may pull some of it to pay off collections.

Monday evening-time for bed. Finished up most stuff for code review. Decent weekend-w/o’s, stuff for back porch, online church, but rainy. M got his new laptop, C got his keyboard. Bills paid, never ends.

Wednesday evening, finishing work on time! Worked super late yesterday. Good w/o-jump rope because of rain-ankle still not liking it. Not much else, fortunately. Getting a pretty consistent 25+ mins for t’ai chi. Need to read and practice. Maybe tonight-M is making tamales. Maybe laundry too.

Friday evening, waiting for M to go run. Tamales were a failure. Not sure why-recipe and too thick maybe? Need more practice. Long weekend. Got stuff done, one bad thing still. Maybe I’ll call this.

Lol. Another week vanished. And Monday was a holiday. Riots over killings. Slowly reopening. Work. Workouts. Yummy dinners made by yours truly. A sore hip, so restless sleep. Talked to my mom. I think I’ll call this.

Didn’t call it. Another vanished week. Protests are ongoing-maybe this means change? Not much else-work, workout, shop. Got a new to me iPod shuffle-perfect for running. Been rainy, so jump rope. Got a shiny tiny new laptop last week, and a thing. Almost all my stuff for sale is sold-4 big things left. Been remembering my dreams but not writing them down. We’ve been planning our meals on Saturday/Sunday and doing all the shopping at once, but this week has been a bit not holding to plan.

Links/viddys-brighter side:

Cats…
Kittens
Otters.
Otter
https://twitter.com/casspa/status/1265467517037883392

Not so bright: don’t even want to go there (especially now).

Page 23, sentence 5: “A given pathway develops under the developmental constraints created by many others: none can occur before its component parts are ready, and none can be too disruptive to the others or to the overall process.” Becoming Human.

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