A big breath out

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Maybe I should do this more often. I was doing it daily-ish for awhile, but ran out of stuff to say, or things going on. Guess I’m either not exciting or not wordy. Or both. I need to practice my musical instruments more than I need to do this. And stop watching TV. Wish me luck. Didn’t happen.

Tuesday morning, still waiting on stuff. And it’s time to go, and still a moving target. Writing designs, things change, write them again. We’ll see.

Wednesday am, still waiting on access. Have good solid designs-I think I’ll write code, in the absence of concrete anything. Good w/o last night-change of paces are tough, t’ai chi was good too. M is working hard as well.

Thursday morning. I finally got to the database through IntelliJ-Toad failed at this…I should get in touch with Debbie, who still works there. No matter-I have code written, and can look at the database now. Pretty quiet at home-C went to a party with kids from his Micha’el 8th grade class. My arms and chest are sore-hard workout on Tues. I’m having trouble with sitting for long periods-my chair is broken and low, and the bus and train aren’t much better. Both of my work shoes need gluing. Totally out of $$$-glad payday is tomorrow.

Friday noon-I think I’m going to call this-weekly posting schedule? Maybe. Things are moving forward. Got paid, but lots of bills, so I need to figure out what to do. Paycheck will likely disappear very quickly. Not much else-just hanging out at home. Paid a few, had to change renters insurance, need to revisit two of them.

Links/viddys. brighter side: I saw one on Twitter with a teacher taking in a disabled former student. Not so bright: don’t even want to go there.

Page 23, sentence 5: “”You look tired,” she says, but that’s not an invitation for me to tell her my woes.”, Way Down Dark

August 15th, 2019

In some house, getting ready to leave for work. Need to give the pager back to Jen Wright before I go, but she’s not around. Go into the meeting room-they’re on a scrum, and I say my thing and give the pager back. It’s not working and they’re talking about it. I go into the other room and pack up my stuff-I’m late.

August 14th, 2019

On Harrison next to PWS, walking towards the library. I have a bunch of stuff in drawers that I’ve stacked and am taking somewhere. On the top of the new library, Data from Star Trek is hanging Riker? off the edge. He tosses him to the other side where Picard holds him off the side, but is laying down and holding on with both arms. They talk about dropping him.

At the beach, walking through a skate park where they’re competing. Go up a ramp and someone barely misses me. I walk down the other side and back to the bike path.

Settling back in

Please tip the writer. Whatever amount you like-every little bit helps, and I’ll do a shoutout. We are always short of cash, especially with a big mortgage. Let me know if you or someone you know needs web design/development-my rates aren’t bad, and I’m more than pretty good at it. Java/database/AWS/UI too. ThankYouVeryMuch!

Monday afternoon-time for lunch. Not getting anything done. Well, a few things, but not the core bits. Tired-been having trouble sleeping. Opinion of the day: men shouldn’t wear shorts unless they’re sportsing or at the beach or it’s very hot. Little boys wear shorts. I’m not the only one.

Tuesday, almost lunch. Spent the morning doing compliance training and nosing through git. Pretty quiet, waiting for actual tasks. I should go back to writing down my dreams-dreamed about kissing a girl… A guy from DTNA checked in on me. Not much else-easy commute, short on $$$. Tip, please. Tired of all the shootings and political messes and immigration BS.

Weds., late morning, meetings, trying to figure out what’s going on. Some young “lady” at the gym last night didn’t understand working in-I waited and waited and waited and finally exploded-need to have management clarify rules about hogging machines. Slept badly-hot and kept waking up. Weds. afternoon, ate lunch with a Micha’el dad who works here.

I don’t normally post political stuff anymore, but this from 2017.

Friday morning, scrum by Skype, four meetings. Pretty mellow-should get real stuff to do next week. Updated things on my website.

Monday-I now have tasks, but the code is nowhere yet. We’ll see. Pretty mellow weekend-cleaned the house, the usual. Good workouts, binz, etc. C to/from a show at the Hawthorne. Boys need to practice driving.

Links/viddys. brighter side: I saw one with a swarm of puppies tackling a little boy, a couple of others. Not so bright: don’t even want to go there.

Page 23, sentence 5: “This collective outcome, in which a system manifests significantly different characteristics from those resulting from simply adding up all of the contributions of its individual constituent parts, is called an emergent behavior.”, Scale

August 11th, 2019

Walk down stairs to a bar, not many people there. See 2 guys and we talk about leaving. It starts raining hot lead, and we run up the stairs and hope we don’t get hit. Run down the street.

Helping pack up a house. Try to make a table smaller. Someone points out that there’s a paper taped underneath. Look at it, then fold the legs in. There’s a horn not going in. Re-fold and it’s tiny.

August 9th, 2019

Want to go to the next level, relax and sink down through the ground. Come to a room where you go to what level is next for you. Watch a few go through. Peek into a room and they’re sitting in a circle. Go into another area and it’s a graveyard-go towards the dark side and zombies chase us back. Find a book with the rules for moving up, walk around and go into a nursery by mistake-leave and walk back through the common area.

New beginnings, again.

Please tip the writer. Whatever amount you like-every little bit helps, and I’ll do a shoutout. We are always short of cash, especially with a big mortgage. Let me know if you or someone you know needs web design/development-my rates aren’t bad, and I’m more than pretty good at it. Java/database/AWS/UI too. ThankYouVeryMuch!

Monday morning. Didn’t get much done this weekend. Tuesday morning-still not getting much done at home, lacking energy. Going to be hot this week-C is graduating in an un-air-conditioned gym tomorrow. No gamelan. I should put the A/C in. Wednesday afternoon, w/o last night, pick up C+1 & M, hot, didn’t sleep well. Thursday morning, C graduated last night, went to Melting Pot w/gf, only stayed for a little bit. It was hot in that gymnasium, and loud, and very unlike my U.S. graduation. Put in both A/C units. Slept better last night, even going to bed late.

So, haven’t touched this for awhile, as I lost my job on the 14th. I’ve been frantically doing the job search, had a face-to-face yesterday, and two next Weds.-onward. There is very little I like less than looking for work. Done this 9 times in 30 years, and it’s never easy or fun. Anyways, going to see Claypool/Lennon this afternoon-hopefully I can get in the pit.

Friday. When you’re not working, it’s different-I’ve been sleeping later, and not getting out of the house as much. I did see Claypool Lennon-a super good set-2 people off the rail, but it rained the whole time-I was prepared, but chilly and soaking wet shoes. Have another face-to-face next week, this time with Nike.

Here it is, Friday after July 4th. It was loud last night-S and E don’t like it. Anyways, 3 face-to-faces this week, and I did pretty well in all of them. One of my former co-workers is at one of the places, which is pretty cool. S had theatre camp this week-she did well.

Tuesday afternoon-that’s a song. Not for me, though I was contemplating some lyrics for protest. Waiting for a phone call, another one later, more tomorrow. Waiting to hear from 2 of the f2f, one declined. Did a code test this morning-yuck. More phone calls…

OK, now it’s August 5th, and I’m sitting in a temporary cube at Cambia. My laptop is set up, waiting on the dev side, and I have a bunch of compliance stuff to do-a lot like Huron in that respect. So, the story since I picked this up last. So many phone calls, a few face-to-faces, plus Skype-ish ones and several coding tests. Got the Cambia offer the evening after the face-to-face, none of the other prospects wanted to take me on. Then 2 weeks of vacay. Noa, my niece, visited for a few days last week-her and 2 friends are driving from Atlanta to Alaska. S went to church camp the week before-had a great time. We cleaned up a lot while I was relaxing, went through everything, including the outside closet. I got rid of some stuff, and E did too, and we rearranged things some. The closet is much emptier, as is my side of the closet. My side of the bed is much the same, though I added a small bookshelf to handle overflow. We also put the 2nd TV in our room with a Blu-ray player. M got me the Einstein on the Beach Blu-ray for my birthday. I’m 58… Need to update my “me over time” gif. Lacking ca$h until the 16th-please tip if you read this. M quit his job-he was done with the manager’s BS. I got a bike for the commute, but not for a week or so-I need all the gear.

Links/viddys. brighter side: I had a few, but not this time… Not so bright: don’t even want to go there.

Page 23, sentence 5. “I was so awestruck that when the end of the show came and he asked for surrenderees to Christ I took him up on it, thinking I’d become a member of some society of Theremin players in the process.”, the Individualist-digressions, dreams & dissertations.

Sword of Damocles approacheth

Please tip the writer. Whatever amount you like-every little bit helps, and I’ll do a shoutout. We are always short of cash, especially with a big mortgage. Let me know if you or someone you know needs web design/development-my rates aren’t bad, and I’m more than pretty good at it. Java/database/AWS/UI too. ThankYouVeryMuch!

Yet again, a long time between posts. Things are much the same. The hammer is about to fall… Need to dodge it. Hopefully that will happen.

Monday after a busy weekend. I’m falling asleep in this meeting. W/o Fri., up Sat, drive to Canby, Olympiad all day-it was hot, back home, C & gf to show, back, back to pick them up, up at 4:30, E to airport, back home, sleep, no church, tidy all day, laundry, no W/O, bed. Up, drive to work, and here we are.

Weds. afternoon, almost time to go-moving forward. Pretty quiet, house is staying clean, no W/O last night. Busy tonight-C to show, gamelan, pick up C late.

Noon on Thursday. E comes back tonight. Not much else-up late to drive C & gf home. S was up a lot too, so she’s tired today. Gamelan was fine-traffic sucks on the way out of downtown, so I was running late-picked up a pizza, got C & gf, home, drive to NE, hop on the 5S, to L&C in 15 mins. Went to get gas, no go, C texts saying the show is out early. Get there in 15 mins, drop off, home, bed, up this morning, drive to work-traffic wasn’t bad. Work thing after work, then dinner, then pick up E.

Friday, noon. Glad this week is over. Pretty filled with stuff. I hated driving-just too many cars. The best was last night-took less than a half-hour, leaving at 6:30 rather than 5. I have good coffee and peanuts from Polly’s, so that’s a plus. E had a good visit with her sis-who’s in a not so good place.

Tuesday, lunchtime! Another week, another weekend. Just the same ‘ol. House didn’t get cleaned, because E wants to go shopping, and I don’t have the energy after that to clean the house too. At least dishes and clothes are getting done, and things are mostly tidy. Was so tired last night, went to bed early. Moved my stuff around a little-now I can see all of my bookshelf.

Weds., after lunch. Pretty mellow week so far. W/o last night, pick up M at work, C jumped in ahead of me for laundry, cut my hair and beard-just a short goatee left-S didn’t like it. Getting stuff done at work. Not much else. Gamelan tonight.

Friday afternoon, long weekend. Need to pay bills and budget. Show tomorrow night. Kinda tired. Not a lot else.

Weds., on the way home. Gamelan tonight, pick up C & gf later. Show was good. Been tired, skipped w/o last night because Chipotle sucks. Not much else-house is relatively tidy. Short of cash.

Thursday on the way home. Very tired-had to pick up C & gf late. Not many people at gamelan. That is all-thinking about stuff.

Tuesday AM, time for more coffee. Tuesday afternoon, time to go home. Wednesday afternoon, time for lunch. Thursday morning-busy-get stuff done yesterday, skipped gamelan. Thursday afternoon-time to go home. Friday morning-deployment tomorrow night, picked up M late last night. Switched over to Hop on my phone-pretty slick to be able to wave it on the Hop pad and my fare is done. Late Sat., busy day, w/o last night.

Links/viddys. brighter side:

dog named stella
https://twitter.com/i/status/1131953425543966720
Elephant buddies
World otter day
Friends
Worst. Retriever. Ever.

Not so bright: don’t even want to go there.

Page 23, sentence 5. “Focus on the tools in front of you and the fact that you have this time to relax and achieve a feeling of peace.”, joy of zentangle. “Blank, like uncut wood.”, lao tzu: tao te ching. “The patterns will be diagrammed in a series of 1-inch (2.5 cm) squares numbered in order.”, One Zentangle a Day, “The ‘JKD direct movement’ in attacks and counters-throwing from where it is without repositioning.”, Tao of Jeet Kune Do.

June 5th, 2019

Walking into an AC/DC? show. Go onto a side street, tell the person I live there. Turn onto another street and park really close to the venue. Walk into the place-have a black wristband on, and show it-they let me in and I walk right to side stage. Look onstage and sit at stage left-there’s are tons of beer cans everywhere.

June 4th, 2019

At work, answer the phone. Someone is asking about a serial number issue. I tell him it’s a data issue, and the phone is ringing on another line.

June 3rd, 2019

Walking along a rocky path, pick my way from stone to stone. We go down to a lane with lots of people. E does a ill magic thing, and someone asks their partner to do it too, because he’s better. I walk past.

In a courthouse, walk up to a desk and ask about something.

May 31st, 2019

Throwing a frisbee in the circle outside the complex. It’s wonky, and we have to chase it and avoid cars. Diane sits down and tells someone with shaking hands they have some odd condition. I say I have shaky hands and she says it’s stress, then sits in my lap. She says to stop touching her throat.

In some messy apartment getting ready to move. Some creepy guy with long hair is using clippers inside a plastic bag on his head. Go into another room. The guy comes flying down the hall with the clippers trailing behind, into the bathroom, and rams into the wall, falling into the bathtub. E goes to help, and I go into another room and stand in the close corner.

May 30th, 2019

The gamelan is set up on stage, and the marimba folks come and set up too. There’s not enough room, and I start trying to put together one of the smaller ones, then take apart the gong stand to move it. I get told to stop, and sit down and wait until they’re done.

In a parking lot, open up a door and a smallish dog comes flying out, into my arms and licks my face. I walk across and give the dog to a girl. Go into a store and lose my pants. It’s tight between the shelves and the window, and I slide past looking for a towel to wrap around. I go back out, find one, wrap it around and roll it. Someone says something, and I say I’ve been doing this for years. Walk back outside, a helicopter comes by with a searchlight. Some guy says they’re looking for something, but the search pattern they’re using is from a picture. Watch the helicopter do these weird patterns.

May 28th, 2019

On the beach, some guy is walking by and he’s a suspect. The guy with me is a cop and starts after him. Someone else goes, “Watch this,” and the guy starts running after the cop says to stop. The cop takes off his shirt, runs and catches the guy. We get him in a car and start trying to find a station. The guy ends up behind the wheel and we’re going away from the station. I reach over and turn the car off. It isn’t slowing, then it does. I get behind the wheel and we go to a station. There’s a line for the desk, and E goes up and tells the watch officer what he’s charged with. We sit next to people from church and they leave after a little while.

May 23rd, 2019

Backstage at a show, the promoter wants a few of the rock stars backstage to go on stage-Eddie V, Bruce D, etc. He’s looking for a bass player and I raise my hand. I tell Bruce to go up first and the crowd will get fired up. We go onstage and the crowd goes wild.

At home, we’re living on the second floor and there’s a fire on the first floor. We go to the back to get our stuff and see the fire making its way there. The fire dept. puts it out and I look down to see all the wreckage. Walk over to the front and look down into the large room below-there’s still fire.

Waiting to get a school bus, gathering up my stuff, making coffee. The bus is coming, and I need shoes, so I run up to the other building to get them.

May 21st, 2019

At work, in a big room. My laptop, which is a super-slim desktop, is filthy, so I take it apart to clean it. I open it up, and there are candy bars stuck to the inside, and crumbs, and dust everywhere. I turn it over to shake it out, and everything falls out, including the motherboard. I go to put it all back together, and the processor is out too. A ribbon cable connected to it is shredded on both ends, and I’m like “this is not good”. I start putting it back together.

May 19th, 2019

Getting ready to climb. Get going, still haven’t put on gloves and stuff. It’s very windy. We make it up a ways, but I can’t put my stuff on so I give up.

May 15th, 2019

Have to go to a party for police officers. Walk in, there’s a crime scene with toys on a wall and a dead couple in a cave above-they’re in formal wear. Walk past, and over to a big table where the cops are standing around.

May 13th, 2019

Cleaning up puddles of pee in the bathroom with TP.

Driving down a freeway, a big plane flies next to us and crashes into a hill. We continue, and big parts start falling around us.