August 6th, 2017

Riding through wine country, I stop because we’re a long way from the start. I say we need to turn around. The others go on, but I start back.

In a house, upstairs. There are robots trying to get in. I yell out that they’re attacking me and the robots go away. They come back and start trying to get in again. I yell again and they go away again. Finally they break down the door.

Walking through a casino, talk to a security person. She takes me to a door and there’s a reporter there. We go into the room and she wants me. She’s actually the manager.

August 4th, 2017

Going out with C on a small boat, we’re sort of hanging out. Some guy flies by in a small plane. He comes around again, lower, and sprays us with colored sparks. He comes around again and I make him crash. Swim over to the place and start punching him.

Looking at an apartment, S looks at a bedroom, get our stuff out of there.

July 31st, 2017

Some guy is playing drums. I walk up and go to take his place. It’s some sort of game, so we have to make the transition seamless. I slide in and we hear a little bit less cheering. I’m trying to play and adjust the set at the same time, so the cheers turn into boos and I just play vs adjust and play. I’m back in the groove and the cheers resume.

July 30th, 2017

At some school, walking to the football field for band practice. My instrument isn’t there, and I go to the band room to get it. It’s not there either, and I need to look for a bassoon too. Walk through all the practice rooms, no joy. Walk back to the office and start going through the files. The director is outside yelling at the band.

July 25th, 2017

Going skiing with Al B. We get up there, then suddenly we’re back in a park. I ask what happened and he says I passed out.

On a curved wide set of risers with VSB. Mindy announces that the new cds are here and I get the box and pass them out. I save off a few for people who aren’t there and one for myself. I tell Mindy the count and we get ready to leave. I stash on in my bag, walk to the back of the bus. Some kid tells Mindy I stole a cd, I hide the one I took. He comes back and starts looking for it. He doesn’t find it, starts going through my bag. I grab him, put him against the wall and tell him never to go through someone’s things without asking first.

Moving day is around the corner.

“If we can get over this summer.” Decade? I need to make some music. Maybe in the new place I’ll be able to set up. With the Kronos, I need a lot less space-board, amp, guitar. I should trim a bit and get everything into the cedar chest. We’ll see. Gotta get busy this weekend and put stuff in boxes, make a list of things to do as well.

E is putting stuff in boxes-some overwork on her part as well. Homemade pizza for dinner-this probably contributed to the overwork as well. Took M to the train station this morning-he’s having a great time at his FBI academy camp. S is enjoying theatre camp, C just stays up late. On a production issue at work-hopefully it won’t end up disastrous-I dislike this stuff. M’s FBI youth academy graduation, lunch, Ikea, worked late, busy repacking my stuff for the move, tidy as much as possible, church, laundry, hurry S to birthday party, shop, eat, pick up dinner, get a corner of the bedroom tidied, go through boys’ closet, Goodwill-picked up a WaterPik for $15. And back to work. The prod issue went through smoothly. We got the new apt., but paying for it is going to be a pain. Our church has been a great help-he have some lovely angels on our side-thanks!

So the past week-work, packing. S had theatre camp, so we saw the two performances Friday and Saturday-S to wrap pool party in fancy-land Sat-only a little envious. Got our keys Sat., I shifted a bunch of stuff from my closet, the outside closet, we got a new bed-letting it air out, so very sunburned, tired, sore and sweaty-it was hot, I was fried by the end of Sunday, and didn’t sleep well. Church, more shifting, Costco, Goodwill, laundry, etc. M helped a lot. We met 3 of the 5 neighbors-we knew 3 of 12 in our current apt. building, and a few more just the kids. My Android device lost its wi-fi, so I’m back to the iPhone only-it’s OK, but the screen is tiny in comparison.

I’m watching the drama in Washington D.C., but trying to not let it affect me-45 is just an outward reflection of the severe dysfunction not just in politics, but in the wider world. A lot of people basically called all this mess last year-I know I did. How to fix? Don’t know if it’s possible except to act as an exemplar and do the inner work. I have stuff to do, but insufficient energy and time to devote to it.

Link farm: Aaahhhhpocalypse Now!, A 21st-Century Form of Indentured Servitude

Page 23, Sentence 5: “That tells you that your next guess should probably involve smaller numbers”, The Playful Brain

Listening to:

Hawkwind, Blue Man Group, The Future Sound of London, Black Sabbath, David Rhodes, Aphex Rock, Primus, Gamelan, Todd Rundgren, The Orb, Gultskra Artikler, Talking Heads, Pere Ubu, Genesis, Gamelan, Anne Clark, Robert Johnson, Peter Gabriel, Coyote Oldman, Built to Spill, Stereolab, Philip Glass, Sneaker Pimps, Bob Seger, Kansas, Jeff Beck, Brian Eno & Jon Hassell, Yes, David Byrne, Gamelan, They Might Be Giants, Supadupa Marimba Bros, Les Musiciens du Nil, Jean Michel Jarre, The Waitresses, BFY, Loren Nerell, Native Flute Ensemble, Yo-Yo Ma & Emanuel Ax, Yes, Pink Floyd, Blur, Utopia, Constance Demby, Tchaikovsky, Grateful Dead, Neu!, Eccentrum, Sun Ra, Tuu, The Clash, Godspeed You! Black Emperor, The Aphex Twin, Molly Hatchet, Brian Eno, Depeche Mode, Alice in Chains, Sly & Robbie, Yo La Tengo, Adam Trainer, Thomas Dolby, Philip Glass, Genesis, Loreena McKennitt, Tuu, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Prokofiev, Jane’s Addiction, Jethro Tull, Debussy, Yello, Gurdjieff, Weezer, David Hudson, Kraftwerk, Kansas, ???-gamelanish, Throbbing Gristle, Beastie Boys, Peter Gabriel, Rush, Henry Wolff and Nancy Hennings, Led Zeppelin, Vidna Obmana, Brian Eno, Earth, Philip Glass, Loren Nerell, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Philip Glass, Veruca Salt, Drepung Tehor Khangtsen, Peter Gabriel, Allan Holdsworth, Lou Harrison, Peru, Cream, UK, fsol, Talvin Singh, Starcastle, Pearl Jam, Public Image Ltd., John Lennon, Steve Roach, The Art of Noise, Veruca Salt, gamelan, Aphex Twin, Jon Porras, Alien Lanes, Venerable Showers of Beauty, avn, Brian Eno & Larajii, Amorphous Androgynous, Anne Clark, The Smashing Pumpkins, De Facto, Aphex Twin, Thomas Dolby, Fugazi, Fripp & Eno, Mickey Hart, Watazumi Doso, Brian Eno, Fiona Apple, French Frith Kaiser Thompson, Stanley Clarke, Brian Eno, Pink Floyd, Steve Hackett, Steve Roach, Djinnestan, Mike Sebastian & Daniel Barbiero, David Bowie, Fishbone, Renaldo & The Loaf, Robert Fripp, Pink Floyd, Brian Eno, Supadupa Marimba Bros, Robert Fripp, Lucerne Festival Strings, Jimi Hendrix, Tchaikovsky, C.P. McDill, Jefferson Starship, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Stereolab, Supadupa Marimba Bros, King Crimson, Bill Bruford, John Lee Hooker, Peter Gabriel, Philip Glass, The Clash, Rage Against The Machine, Psychic TV, A Beautiful Machine, Alien Skull Paint, George Harrison, Peter Gabriel, Harold Budd, AFx, Barclay James Harvest, Oasis, Gamelan, Venerable Showers of Beauty, karhu, Material, Sigur Rós, Jenny Bird, Mystified, Cult, Brian Eno & David Byrne, Constance Demby, Roger Powell, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Anne Dudley, Eno-Byrne, The Pretenders, Genesis, Tori Amos, Suspended Memories, Peter Gabriel, Henry Cow, Sly & Robbie, Thomas Dolby, Sigur Rós, Melt-Banana, Allan Holdsworth, Cream, The Crystal Method, Brahms, Enya, Grand Mixer D.ST., Black Uhuru, Heart, Hardo Budoyo ensemble, Schoenberg, Venerable Showers of Beauty, The Future Sound Of London (x2), Frankie Goes To Hollywood, Vidna Obmana, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Anahata, The Band, Archive, Jonn Serrie, David Bowie, Steve Winwood, Veruca Salt, Skinny Puppy, Material, Philip Glass, Yellow Magic Orchestra

July 14th, 2017

On stage, wide and short, high up. We walk along the back and talk about the crowd and how you could walk on it. Someone requests a Van Halen song and they do Panama with a lift. I look at a crowd in New York break through a fence.

July 12th, 2017

Trying to get my kids to a park. Pick them up and go to a parking lot. Lots of other kids from the class are there. Walk over to some trees and a hill.

In a big room with the SNL cast. Trying to get ready for a show. We go over one skit.

Is patriotism dead?

Killed by Republican extremism? Likely a media driven hollowed out expression of sublimated violence. The question becomes: what is the meaning? I read the time odyssey series by Arthur C. Clarke, which expands the definition to mean all of Earth. This may still be too narrow. Def. been replaced on the GOP side with a twisted nationalism/religiosity. And it’s just one thing after another in political news. Seeing that a gigantic Antarctic ice shelf just calved, climate change is so much more important than political squabbling. Relevant quote not found. Here is one from 2007: “They’d prefer to be emirs and kings running a shambling catastrophe of a country than moderately rich men in Sweden.”

Ok, so weekend was shop, clean, church. Had to help a co-worker with a thing. Misplaced my power supply-had to drive to work to get another-ferried C around too. Slept in, shop. Got S from theatre camp. E bought a red Rav4-lower payments, but higher debt. Watching the Tour. Trying to find a bigger place-we might move next door-C doesn’t like it. The usual weekend stuff-I’m feeling, well I don’t know. Back to work. My BP is OK, no colon issues.

Climate change: This is so strong. Politics: This too, and more from Salon. I may need to resurrect the link farm…

Page 23, Sentence 5: “Not serious.”, Firstborn

Listening to:

Lynyrd Skynyrd, Material, The Band, James Gang, Gamelan, Tin Huey, Jon Porras, Primus, Rush, Johannes Brahms, Karawitan, Constance Demby, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Alva Noto, Peter Kater & R. Carlos Nakai, Alien Lanes, Björk, The Crystal Method, Deben Bhattacharya, K.M.Krebs, Deftones, Wall of Voodoo, Brian Eno, Philip Glass, Robert Johnson, Blue Oyster Cult, Philip Glass, Stereolab, Buddy Guy, Robert Rich, Fripp and Eno, George Clinton, Allan Holdsworth, Fred Frith, Throbbing Gristle, Todd Rundgren, Vidna Obmana, Todd Rundgren, Bill Bruford’s Earthworks, attack attack attack, Century of Aeroplanes, Latin Playboys, Al Gromer Khan, Brahms, Cream, Andy Summers & Robert Fripp, Brian Eno, Skinny Puppy, The Residents, Deborah Martin, Genesis, Gamelan, Yes, Smashing Pumpkins, Veruca Salt, Brian Eno, Earth, karhu, Drepung Tehor Khangtsen, Village of Ketewel, Philip Glass, Steve Hackett, Stanley Clarke, Native Flute Ensemble, Mekons, Thomas Dolby, Veruca Salt, Ray, Fiktion, Pearl Jam, Tom Waits, Brian Eno, Gamelan, Peter Gabriel, King Crimson, Mike Sebastian & Daniel Barbiero, Shubert, The Future Sound of London, Material, Weezer, Oasis, Romeo Void, Todd Rundgren, Brian Eno, David Bowie, Curved Air, Gary Numan, Anne Dudley, Henry Cow, Philip Glass, Rush, The Flaming Lips, Aphex Twin, Mystified, Sun Ra, Melvins, avn, Guess Who, David Bowie, Peter Gabriel, Dead Can Dance, Bob Seger, Japan, The Future Sound Of London, Jethro Tull, Earth, Grateful Dead, New Order, Dominatrix, Hawkwind, Massive Attack, Claypool Lennon Delirium, Sunn O))), Robert Fripp, Adam And The Ants, Tchaikovsky, Loren Nerell, Tchaikovsky, Zakir Hussain, The Who, Venerable Showers of Beauty, George Harrison, The B-52’s, fIREHOSE, Brian Eno, Brainscapes, Aerosmith, Public Image Ltd, Beck, Celer, Weezer, A Beautiful Machine, Aphex Twin, 311, Gamelan, David Sylvian, Gyorgy Ligeti, Benedictine Monks of Santo Domingo de Silos, Jane’s Addiction, Grace Jones

July 11th, 2017

Drive up to 30700 with a bunch of friends. We walk to the back yard, but it’s a long way down there. We look down, and I talk about climbing the trees. We climb out there, and the tree limbs start breaking. We scramble off the tree, and walk back to the road. The old lady in the house sees up and says something. We leave.

July 10th, 2017

Walking around a parking lot, get a ride somewhere else. Walk into a food court, think about my friend starting another one-but it would be too much-see him walking around.

July 6th, 2017

In a big room, Lendie is there with a drum set. I want to show her different drumming styles, so I sit down, adjust the drums and go through what I know.

July 3rd, 2017

Going to eat dinner with a big group, several tables. We decide who sits where, and someone new is coming. He comes, and it’s someone fron Scouts. He sees me, and says he has a lot of stories to share. He hands me my book, and I leave. A cart takes me down the hill. I get off and start walking up the next one. Start to cross the tracks, but wait until the crossing.

At a Goodwill, in back. I slept through something, and wake up. Put on my clothes and get ready to leave.

At pws, looking at Al’s car. He says he’s getting a new one. We get in and drive through downtown.

July 2nd, 2017

Trying to get into a cult temple. Climb up and through a window on the roof. Go looking for a thing. Break into a locked cabinet looking for keys. Some old lady takes me up a ladder and shows me a huge book that they’re just finishing. Walk through, see Roger C and go back out. There’s a judge there, I give him the file the Roger is working on. He’s the wrong judge-he tells me where to go.

Driving down SOM Center-need to get somewhere. Stop and talk with Mike K.

Again, again, again

Well, life is rolling along. Not much new. Moved the gamelan from PSU back home. S got a new bike, and promptly got into drama with other girls. Got up early Friday to see a new Dr. Cholesterol is 193…BP is a bit high-need to check it a few times. And it’s 140/90 this morning. S to friends’, dinner out with the boys last night. Helped finish setting up the a/c. Very tired, not far from home.

The weekend: hot, errands, C to house show, pickup. E to church, pickup, errands. S is staying up late. New Zealand won the America’s Cup. E picked me up from work, picked up C from the train late. No gamelan, S has a bike, E picked me up, took her to Dr’s app’t, shutdown next week, but I get to work!

Page 23, Sentence 5: “It is hard for non-Tibetans to understand how much the Dalai Lama means to the Tibetan people, and this exile community in particular.”, The Book of Joy: Lasting Happiness in a Changing World

Listening to:

Annansy Cisse, William Edge, Frank Zappa, R. Carlos Nakai, Brian Eno, Helmet, Thomas Dolby, Robert Rich & Steve Roach, Todd Rundgren, Jefferson Starship, Tori Amos, ZZ Top, Brian Eno, Thomas Dolby, Philip Glass, u2, Brian Eno, Rush, Mike Oldfield, White Zombie, Mickey Hart, Philip Glass, fIREHOSE, Kansas, Psychic TV, Pink Floyd, The Police, Peter Gabriel, Yello, Mahavishnu Orchestra, Gil Scott-Heron, Robert Fripp, The Crystal Method, Gultskra Artikler, Terry Riley, Funkadelic, Paul Horn, Jethro Tull, Brian Eno, Talvin Singh, Craig Padilla, The Smiths, Bad Company, The Residents, Melvins, Suspended Memories, David Bowie, Brian Eno & Jon Hassell, Yo La Tengo, Jenny Bird, Jeffrey Fayman & Robert Fripp, Brian Eno, Tchaikovsky, Yes, David Byrne, Philip Glass, Biosphere, Tchaikovsky, Peter Gabriel, John Lennon, Todd Rundgren, Pink Floyd, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Sly & Robbie, Hawkwind, De Facto, Brand X, Jefferson Starship, Lou Reed , Africa?, The Laziest Men on Mars, Rush, Poe, Anne Clark, Mystified, Joseph Kingma, Mozart, Bartok, Hardo Budoyo ensemble, Alexei Borisov, Babe The Blue Ox, Harold Budd, Earth Ear, Gentle Giant, Claypool Lennon Delirium, Renaissance, Grace Jones, U2, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Constance Demby, Hooverphonic, Rage Against The Machine, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Babe The Blue Ox, Fiona Apple, Neutral Milk Hotel, Helmet, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Todd Rundgren, Ambrosia, Tabla Beat Science, Veruca Salt, Melvins, David Sylvian, Orbital, Steve Reich, Coyote Oldman, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Alien Lanes, Cheb I Sabbah, Gentle Giant, Shostakovich, K.M.Krebs, Jeff Harrington, Pere Ubu, ZZ Top, Barclay James Harvest, Rush, Bob Marley, Material, Max Romeo, The Pretenders, Pere Ubu, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Rage Against The Machine, Benedictine Monks of Santo Domingo de Silos, Heart, Claypool Lennon Delirium, Bob Marley & The Wailers, Deva Premal, Throbbing Gristle, Ligeti, Edoardo Romani Capello, Allan Holdsworth, Anugama, Tchaikovsky, Century of Aeroplanes, William Orbit, Flores & mystified, Stereolab, Peter Tosh, Samuel Barber, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Oregon, Anugama, Brian Eno, Teges Kanyinan, Todd Rundgren’s Utopia, Rush, Philip Glass, Edie Brickell and New Bohemians, Peter Gabriel, Gamelan, Brian Eno, Cream, Todd Rundgren, Robert Rich, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Constance Demby, Wishcollapse, The Clash, David Bowie, Material, Brian Eno and Jah Wobble, Herb Ernst, Megadeth, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Alice in Chains, Nine Inch Nails, Philip Glass, Aphex Twin, Monks of Gyütö Tantris College, Peter Gabriel, Cream, Century of Airoplanes, Supadupa Marimba Bros, Cult, David Sylvian, The Art Of Noise, Earth, Allan Holdsworth, Hafíz Kani Karaca, Jonn Serrie, Pixies, Village of Ketewel, Thomas Dolby, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Benedictines of Mary, Wall of Voodoo, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Henry Cow, Luigi Russolo, De Facto

June 29th, 2017

In a chairlift, going up a bare hill between buildings. Some OHS guys are trying to get to me, I kick at them. Go around the other side of the buildings.

June 27th, 2017

In a big room/building with a bunch of small shipping containers inside. Walk around, trying to stay out of sight of the windows.

June 23rd, 2017

At home, walking around. Go into a room with a kitten and a few other small animals. They are adorable and I play with them. Go out to the living room, there’s an odd bird like creature that changes parts to other animals. I figure that it’s an alien. Another appears and I take a few pictures of it with my phone. It puts up a big display explaining things and I take a picture of each slide. They leave, and I’m excited about sharing this.

In an office around a table, we’re doing a scrum. One person doesn’t like it. Trump shows up and has trouble getting through the crowd. Someone from the office is dressed in red and is fawning over Trump.

At a gym, lifting weights. I’m setting up an arm machine.

June 22nd, 2017

At a bar, lots of comfy chairs. Some girl (Carol Foxxx?) comes up to me, we talk and start kissing, etc. She traps my hand when I reach down. We finish, sit down on a couch with someone else. The phone rings, she goes to answer it, I say it’s my wife, hang up. She walks in, sees us on the couch, smiles tightly, and leaves. I think about following her, but think better.

Walking with some guys through a small tunnel up a mountain. One guy says we need to go one way to get to the top, I say another. We go his way, and end up at the bottom. We walk through the parking lot.

June 21st, 2017

Mindy wants me to do some landscaping around her house. She rattles off a bunch of Latin plant names. I think she’s testing me. We walk around and outside.

At another big house, trying to change. Go outside and kids are there. Go back in with my clothes all covered in dirt. Try to change in the bathroom and hide from the kids. They come looking for me and I go out the other door.