Humanity has changed with the spread of Western civilization. The primacy of mercantilism, the importance of material goods, has altered the relation of man to himself, to others and to the world around him.
As man is descended from animals, he retains certain characteristics of animals, and primarily of those animals closest to him. To find out what man’s most “natural” state is, let’s look at the great apes and the lesser simians.
Great apes, such as mountain gorillas, are essentially peaceful creatures, mostly concerned with food, grooming, reproduction and each other. Males show aggression but rarely harm one another. The great apes are plant eaters.
Did Christ Take on 2000 Years of National Karma?
Christ is the New Testament image of a “saviour”. What is he saving? The bible never tells us exactly. Christian dogma says that he was saving all men from their sins.
This can be taken several ways. Is he saving all men from their individual sins? Is he saving just those men who accept him? Is he saving the sins of all mankind?
Sins are karmic burden. They can only be erased in two ways-by experiencing the backlash of the burden, or by removing them by good deeds.
Sins of one person can’t be assumed or erased by another. If this is true, then the sins assumed by Christ are not of one person, but of many. This could be analogous to what happened in the Flood, where God decided to start over.
Several questions begin to arise if this is the case. Why did this global burden of sin need to be lifted? Is there some connection between the 2000 year cycle and the lifting of “national” karma? Does it have something to do with the quality of energy that manifests itself in each eon? How is this absolution of sin accomplished? Did the descent into hell and the ascent into heaven symbolize the transfer of that bad karma into higher energy required in the next cycle? What does this all mean now? How does the last 2000 years of bad karma get erased and who will erase it now?
Lots of questions to think about…Let’s start with the why questions. This national karma must be associated with some part of the changing cycles of man, if it needs to be released every time around. If the flood was one time, and the crucifixion another, then this may be the case. Why is this?
If we look at the particular focus of each era, we can see a changing emphasis of each cycle. This emphasis is based on the refinement and focusing of man’s energy. If the collective actions of men during each cycle result in this national karma, the karma is floating above a particular emphasis and energy level. For man to move to the next level, the remaining karma of the last one must be raised as well.
Now we need to find out how this release is accomplished. Let’s review Christ’s life and see if it contains any insights into how the release is done.
Born as an avatar with auspicious signs and physical characteristics. A persecution at his birth and a flight to safety. A youth and adolescence of spiritual education. A deliverance and anoiting. A physical/spiritual journey, temptation and transcendence of temptation. A ministry, teaching others what was learned. Defiance of authority and persecution. Foreknowledge and planning of specific events. A planned betrayal. A drumhead trial. A public humiliation. A painful death. A spiritual journey paralleling the physical journey. Transcendence and liberation.
How do we interpret these events in the light of releasing national karma? Here is what I think. The process to release the karma is for one person to act as a lens through which all the karma can focus and be transformed. The first step in this process is becoming enlightened by perfecting the self. Then realizing how to attract all the karma to oneself and taking it up to a higher level. This is done by moving to the lowest possible energy level and picking up all energy, then by rising up and taking the energy along.
This is a major undertaking, and fraught with the most dangerous perils. The quantity of national karma accumulated in the last 2000 years is immense, but its release is necessary to the continued progress of humanity.
Chakras as nodes of spiritual resonance
Chakras are special points along our spine. They come from Indian spiritual belief. They represent foci of specific types of energy.
There are 7 chakras, distributed from the bottom of the spine to above the head. Each one has a specific color, name, location and series of attributes. They are commonly represented as lotus blossoms, with a specific number of petals corresponding to the various attributes and each one with a specific sound.
What are these chakras? Why are they located in specific positions? Why do they have all these attributes associated with them? Let’s see if I can clarify and answer some of these questions.
The highest chakra, sahasrara, with 1000 petals is located above the head. This chakra is the most complicated with the highest energy level. It is the pinnacle of the chakras. This chakra must be the one that acts as the original source of energy that supplies the other, lower chakras. Where does this energy come from?
As the chakra is above our heads, the energy must come from above our physical being. This chakra must act as a conduit to higher energy states. Some parallel concepts include the ‘clear white light’ of the Tibetans, Alice Bailey’s “Ray of Creation”, etc. This energy radiates downward, illuminating all of existence and the spiritual body.
The other chakras have some relation to this highest chakra. Each chakra has a quality associated with it, a color, a sound, a number of petals and a series of positive and negative attributes associated with petal. As the chakras go down the spine, their attributes and qualities become less refined, from spiritual sight to speech to emotion to digestion to reproduction to elimination. This shows that some quality of the original energy has become less refined at each step.
It seems that each chakra is a point at which energy resonates and some of that energy is lost. Thus, by the time that the bottom is reached, the grossest energy is the only energy that remains.
Therefore, a chakra can be defined as a point of resonance from an unlimited energy source located above the head, where specific qualities and energies are focused and dissipated throughout the body. The lotus petals signify the resonance quality and amount.
This concept has similarities to harmonics in a vibrating string. The chakras can be laid out as a harmonic progression. As the source is reached, the harmonics get closer together. The secret chakras and realms that exist as the thousand petal lotus is approached show this.
Charting the chakras
There are 7 main chakras, and several secret ones just below the top…
| Name | Petals | Location | Element | Color | Attributes | Image |
| sahasrara | 1000 | above head | “the crown”-infinite | |||
| Vindu, Visarga-Shakti-root of bliss | secret | |||||
| creatrix parama-nirvana-Shakti | secret | |||||
| crescent Nirvana-Kala | secret | |||||
| 16th digit of moon Ama-Kala | secret | |||||
| eyes and throat Kama-Kala | secret | |||||
| beak Pranava | secret | |||||
| feet Shiva Shakti | secret | |||||
| wings Agama, Nigana | secret | |||||
| body jnana-maya | secret | |||||
| feet Guru | secret | |||||
| altar Paramahangsa | secret | |||||
| Vindu | secret | |||||
| Nada | secret | |||||
| forked lines a ka tha | secret | |||||
| altar of gems | secret | |||||
| island of gems | secret | |||||
| ocean of nectar | secret | |||||
| 12 petaled white lotus | secret | |||||
| index point Vindu | secret | |||||
| white crescent Nada | secret | |||||
| flame pranava | secret | |||||
| radiant ishvara | secret |
| soma | 16 | secret | mercy, gentleness, patience, dispassion. constancy, prosperity, cheerfulness, thrill, humility, meditation, quietude. gravity, effort , emotionlessness, magnanimity, concentration |
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| manas | 6 | secret | hearing, touch, sight, smell, taste, sleep | |||
| ajna | 2 | eye | red | perception, intuition, clairvoyance, memory, detachment |
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| vishudda | 16 | throat | ether | smoky red | 7 notes-hishada, rishabha, gandhara, shadaja, madhayana, dhaivata, panchama; “venom”; 7 vija-hung, phat, vaushat, vashat,svadha, svana, namah; nectar |
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| anahata | 12 | heart | air | deep red | hope, care, endeavor, possession, arrogance, languor, conceit, discrimination, covetousness, duplicity, indecision, regret |
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| manipura | 10 | stomach | fire | gold | shame, fickleness, jealousy, desire, laziness, sadness, dullness, ignorance, aversion, fear |
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| svadhishthana | 6 | testes | water | yellow | credulity, suspicion, disdain, delusion, false knowledge, pitilessness | ![]() |
| muladhara | 4 | anus | earth | red | yoga bliss, supreme bliss, natural bliss, vira bliss | ![]() |
Asymptotes and infinite regress-the climbing ladder of evolution (man from nothing to star)
If we postulate that the goal of life is to reduce entropy, there must be some manner in which this entropy lessening/energy increasing action to manifest itself. To see this energy increase, a graph is an appropriate tool.
An exponential graph which represents a function moving from maximum entropy to minimum entropy, or minimum organization to maximum organization, seems to be an effective image.
The metaphor of an exponential graph can be extended to non-physical ideas and energy states as well. It represents progress building upon progress in an increasing manner.
Let’s look at evolution. Life starts off as a sub microscopic chain of atoms. It continues to aggregate and increase in complexity. This process continues at an ever increasing rate. First molecules, then chains of molecules, then aggregates of molecules, then cells, then simple multicellular water-borne creatures, then plants, then fish, then crawling, walking, running, flying animals, then intelligent animals, then language & tool making creatures, then the whole of human history. So, what’s next? We are poised at the end of an exponential curve…
There are other interesting applications of this metaphor. The fact that the curve goes from 0 to infinity suggests extremes or a dualistic nature. The x and y axes are asymptotes of an unattainable goal. The area under the curve can be viewed as a normal probability distribution. Everything that is comprehensible to us, or that can bear life is contained within the 1st or 2nd variance.
The Kabalah represents this by a concept known as the tree of life. If we look at the top and the bottom of tree, there are realms outside of these items. These realms can be thought of as the asymptotes of an exponential curve of existence. We could look at those items at the top and bottom of the tree as containing the other realms outside of the tree. If this is so, the items will contain a tree of life that represents the outer realms. If you extend the analogy, each of these trees of life will contain trees of life and so on to infinity.
The solution to proper release/transfer of chakras is a hyperbola. Integrating the two concepts leaves Tiphareth as the balance point, giving both ways as possible, but at 45° or 225°. They both have returns, 225° has a lower energy return, less efficient (total is return time). As you hang on the balance of either/both, it turns into Tiphareth. This is why JC is seen as going to heaven & hell first. He had to reconcile one to the other. What happened is that he took all the negative agglomerate karma, pulled it down then up. This was the measure of the whirlwind pulled down, reconciled, then pulled up (also why he said what he did…) The key to pulling off the hyperbolic chakras is Tiphareth. This chakra has to be immaculate-giving birth to the JC pictures of a flaming heart. This chakra acts as the primary resonance point and needs perfect equilibrium. To clear a transfer-a router or lens, basically. The method of entry to chakra rotation is expand, test clarity of rotation. What is crucial is testing resonance in 5 & 6 and settling that resonance. This is a crucial chakra, being the prime harmonic, and requires careful control.
What I’m working on now is mediation of lowest with highest. As is appropriate, the heart chakra is the key, as it’s the first octave. The idea is to smooth it out to achieve proper energy transfer. As the energy curve is a hyperbola, negative to positive infinity, it stands in the middle, the abyss, and the choice between left and right paths.
This energy curve at each of its ends, also turns around and begins again. This is the essence of the left\right choice. Do you jump the abyss or follow down the curve-one of the next spiral points aligned 90 degrees to the abyss? This continues to fractal levels, and meets up at THAT infinity. That way is longer, but less energy consuming.
To tie physical reality to non-physical requires postulating multi-dimensional strings that make up our reality. Since we can only directly perceive 3 dimensions and infer 1 more, the rest HAVE to be non-physical. It’s difficult to register just because of that. 10 dimensions of infinite reality, each more subtle than the last. We can’t get to them except through high energy (close to infinite levels) and psychic means. Psychic means are an exercise in focusing consciousness, as our brains are wired for creating a psychic net or antenna, with a spine for mediating energy transfer, lowest to highest and vice versa.
Maybe the best way to measure it is to simulate that net in structure and partial function, focusing on receiving antennas, processing and energy mediation. We act as both broadcasters and receivers, shaping both physical and non-physical reality. Since direct contact is our infinity, it’s tough to sense. That’s the effect described in the Bardo, and applies to all thing, both in death and on a macro scale, and at each point in the 10 D progression. It’s also analogous to the Kabbalastic Tree of Life, with each Sephira as another infinity, both in itself as a progression and as a shorthand for the 10 D string. The infinity falls off to either resume the current one or take the next upper round in the quantum state. You’re trying to jump one ring down the string’s scale, and since that determines what reality you exist in, it’s hard to do. You either spend a lot of energy or act as the infinity itself, since that’s how you got there and that’s what it is.
There are also some interesting corollaries to this theory. Since 10D strings encompass infinity at each step, all infinities have 10 degrees of freedom and infinity. Since we can only see 3 and conceive 4, the rest are alternate paths for the 4 dimensions we can see. These paths are quantum differences, and we can only see the most probable. The rest are still around, but we’re unable to perceive them. You could see them at the next level up, as clouds of possible realities-much like physicists visualize energy shells in atoms
This is why our perception is so closely focused-all those infinities would be utterly confusing and overload us. We would see all things, all at once.
Assemblage points come into this. If you shift your assemblage point, another set of realities would be visible.
First principles of modern physics-proving my intuitions mathematically
Multiple infinities-classes-all infinities are equal-therefore we are all one.
visualizing 4+ dimensions
Go up to 6th chakra and back down until it’s rock solid stable
visualizing my multiple realities (all my lives then in all possible alternates, then others, then all things)
non-monetary accounting acting as a lens Synthesis of hindu/kabbalah/physics
Postulate that we live in 10 dimensions (actually infinity). Each dimension is a level on the tree of life, and a chakra point. We exist and perceive in the middle set of dimensions, as it’s also a normal distribution of energy from positive to negative infinity. The lowest 3 are below our reality, it’s a broken infinity, as absolute negative infinity is the same as positive infinity. The next 3 are physis-normal matter. The next 3 are mensis/tempis-thought and time. The top is a broken triad-again infinity. The transitions between triads are abysses, as different triads require different attentions. You have to jump the abyss & shift assemblage points.
positive infinity, 5 sigmas, Godhead, spirit, Ain soph aur
4 sigmas, Archangelic, Ain soph
3 sigmas, Angelic, Crown chakra, fire, ain, transfinite
-Great abyss, kether
2 sigmas, Astral, eye chakra, 2&3 sephira, union/light, 3d of time
1 sigma, Mental, throat chakra, 4&5 sephira, breath/speech, 2d of time
great mean, Minor abyss, heart chakra, Tiphareth, air, time
-1 sigma, Emotional, stomach chakra, 7&8 sephira, space
-2 sigma, physical, genital chakra, 9 sephira, plane
-3 sigma, anal chakra, 10 sephira, water, line
-Lower abyss
-4 sigmas, qlippoth, knees, point
negative infinity, -5 sigmas, feet/earth
Asymptotes and the folding of the planes
The asymptote as a fundamental image of progress is an apt metaphor. It can be applied to many things, including spiritual thought.
If we look at the asymptote as a way of representing increased energy levels or spiritual refinement, several interesting corollaries occur. If we are looking at increases of energy Kundalini most readily comes to mind. Associated with Kundalini is the chakras. If we look at the asymptote as a representation of Kundalini energy, the chakras are waypoints of specific energy states, energy quantum levels. Progress in achieving higher spiritual levels is measured by the chakra level.
So what happens when you reach the end of the curve? You have achieved oneness with positive infinity. Because all infinities are equal, this leads you to the negative infinity on the next higher energy state. This is a spiral effect.
Basically, you rise to the next plane of existence, to start the rise to positive infinity again.
Another useful application of the asymptote metaphor is the general spiritual progress of mankind. The metaphor can be applied to the Great Ages of mankind concept, much as it was used in the chakras. Each succeeding great age can be seen as a chakra.
Increases in population can be seen as one effect of the exponential curve. Increases in spiritual refinement and “spiritual density”, i.e. higher levels of mind use also follow the curve. This also implies a more or less continual increase, with the chakra points as spiritual turning points in the age sequence, analogous to millennia.
Another use of the asymptote idea is in the classifying of the axes. Any convenient dualistic concept, such as good/evil, coarse/fine, ignorance/knowledge, nothing/everything, yin/yang, etc., can be represented on the axes. Here, I am trying to represent spiritual ideas, with the energy spiral and the “folding” of asymptotes as a progression of opposites reconciling then splitting apart at a higher level. To reach the reconciliation, one must travel along the curve to the zenith or apex at the relevant axis.
So what does this all mean? Let’s try to find out where we are on the curve for the great ages concept. As a population graph, we are fairly high on the curve and climbing rapidly. On a spiritual level, density is changing, mainly due to the increased number of people in existence. In a more realistic sense, the increase in esoteric writings and teachings reaching publication and the quality of spiritual ideas suggests an increase from the levels of the past, but not a steep increase. There is also a corollary increase of evil, violence and materialism.
These trends may have something to do with a certain level of advancement. There is a point on the asymptote where the axes are in perfect balance. This is the point of equidistance from both axes. There is a tension here between the two concepts on the axes. From another perspective, this is the place where the force needed to cross over to the other axis equally balances the force pulling from the original axis. An appropriate concept would be an abyss-a difficult place that must be crossed to continue to the other side.
This balance can be seen in the reaction to new ideas- a wish for the ideas to disappear and the older ideas to predominate, in the difficulty to concentrate amid the clamor of new things. On the balance there is an equal concentration of both axes attributes, and a corresponding difficulty in expressing increases in spiritual feelings that would affect the jump across the abyss.
To tip the balance, a special effort needs to be made, to impress spirit.
Building a spiritual hut-the first great step
On a personal level, the quest for spiritual progress takes many forms. That there are many paths up the mountain of spirit is a common but apt metaphor.
The goal of all spiritual work is to reach spiritual purity. Along with spiritual purity comes the ability to inhabit spiritual space. How is this goal accomplished? As I’ve said, there are many ways to reach the goal, but there are some landmarks that may be used to judge progress towards the goal.
There is an essential link between physical and spiritual (non-physical) existence. Spiritual existence is much finer and subtler, requiring refinement of senses and discipline to inhabit it consciously. Several basic mechanisms and exercises train the beginner to develop these subtle senses. Quieting and controlling thought and emotion, focusing attention and thought, and opening up to sensations are basic first steps.
The first step is the act of taking these exercises up as habit.
The next step concerns gaining further ability in quieting thought, controlling thought and emotion, focusing attention and perceiving spiritual essence. After time spent trying to perceive feelings from other objects with increasing levels of life, from plants to animals to humans, the actual perception of spiritual existence becomes apparent. You perceive your own thoughts, the thoughts of others and non-physical beings in spiritual space. This perceptual ability is the second goal.
With continued work, these perceptions become sharper and more controlled. The next step is to begin to inhabit spiritual space.
Ritual in modern life
Humanity needs ritual to give substance to his spiritual life.
What are the rituals?
Initiatory, equinox/solstice, change of life, daily, cleansing, other.
Special actions and words and time spent in a sacred place with others of like mind provide people with a structure to focus their energies.
A consistent set of actions also allows the mind to focus and relax and let the spirit take over.
Unfortunately, current rituals are old, in some cases dating back several thousand years. They were designed for times and cultures and spiritual development that is not current anymore.
What can we replace it with? There is certainly some good and effectiveness in the old rituals, or they would wither away through lack of use or disinterest. Let’s look at them to see if we can deduce some essential elements to base new rituals on.
What are some popular ritualistic behaviors? Certainly traditional Christian worship comes to mind. As does the less traditional “praise” worship. Further afield, rock concerts, teenage display behavior, gang initiations, ceremonial magic could also be considered ritual behavior.
Rituals have a structure-a beginning, a middle and an end. Essentially you’re working with energy, either physical or spiritual in nature. The 3 phases act to gather and seal, work with, and store or release energy.
The “Bodhisattva cops”
At the end of our current great incarnation, the masters who return to clean up the dirty street and sweep the last ones up. “Move on down the road”
Volunteer to come back fully conscious. They act to pull the left path people into one. They do this by merging. Left-temporal, nontemporal influence, control, sensation, egocentrism, power, implosive vs expansive. Right-cooperative, mutual growth & raise, othercentrism, submission, use of physicality for higher purposes, integration, expansive. Here’s what happens-most everyone has grown up or devolved. They’re either fully left or right-no fence sitters. Rights are already transcarnated. Lefts are physical but working in nontemporal, for personal gain and power.
The Philosopher’s Stone
The essence of alchemy is the Philosopher’s Stone-the method of transmuting pure essence of spirit energy into physical and mental activity and reality. It is not a stone per se, but a method of attainment that pulls Kether, Ain Soph and Ain Soph Aur into Tiphareth and distributes the transmuted spiritual essence and energy into Malkuth and beyond.
The Great Work is realizing the transmutation and providing a conduit to pass spiritual essence and energy through Tiphareth to the three physical states below Tiphareth and to all other beings in and below those states-to allow them to experience Kether and beyond, and to assist them to realize Kether in their own existences and to move onto higher energy states.
This is the basis for Christ and the transforming principle that underlies all spiritual life. “Every man and woman is a star” describes the essence of this “bringing down of the light” that is the goal-moving energy from the highest to the lowest. “As above, so below” is the basis of spiritual reflection, a guidepost of making the transformation, and a simultaneous refinement and transformation of all highest into all lowest, all lowest to all highest, the Great Work in all forms, methods, beings, and places.
The essence of spiritual transformation is our will, and the use of our will in harmony, oneness, and realization of the Great Work. We strive to attain the highest, the Kether that is within us all, and to assist and distribute that essence to all, everywhere, forever.
Will Legalization End The Violence?
As a drug user of some 17 years, I say YES, legalization will end the violence.
Here are three reasons why.
Use vs. abuse
Drug use is what is currently thought of when you look at the legal drugs-alcohol, caffeine and nicotine. While these drugs are certainly abused by many in our society, they are commonly considered drugs that can be used without abuse symptoms (craving, withdrawal, lifestyle change). The non-legal drugs (cannabis, cocaine, LSD, psilocybin, MDMA, heroin, prescription drugs used illegally, etc.) are currently thought of as drugs of abuse. From personal experience, both types of drugs have the potential for abuse (as we well know), but both can also be used without abuse symptoms.
Abuse is, in my opinion, a psychological problem. Those who abuse one particular substance are likely to abuse others. If the abuse/addiction patterns can be addressed, through therapy or other means, then the individual may be able to break the cycle of abuse/addiction and be able to lead a normal life free from abuse.
By legalizing drugs, a way becomes possible to monitor drug use/abuse patterns and treat potential abusers before they damage theirs and others lives. Each drug user gets a prescription for the drug(s) they choose to use. When the supply runs out, they have to return to refill the prescription. As all prescriptions are held in a common data store, when a user begins to request refills above a given rate, a flag is raised to have the user be recommended for treatment. This could be hardened to require the user to undergo treatment before further refills are sold.
Comparing some use patterns of users vs. abusers may serve to illustrate why legalization may reduce the numbers of abusers (and thereby violence). The classic “signs of an alcoholic” may be relevant to other drug use as well, and enable us to see indications of abuse (the DSM IV (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual) is definitive in this regard.) A user will use a given drug from rarely to often, but not consistently at elevated levels. For example, a user may smoke cannabis regularly on Friday and Saturday nights, occasionally on weeknights, rarely or not at all on weekdays. An abuser may smoke cannabis every day, upon waking, at lunch, after work, alone, all the time. A user will consider his/her use to enhance enjoyment of life, whereas an abuser will consider their use to be how they get through life. If a user runs out of the drug, they will not panic over whether and when the next purchase will take place. An abuser will panic, and become desperate for the next purchase immediately. This leads to irrational behavior, such as stealing or killing for money for the purchase. This is how the cycle of abuser violence starts. By reducing abusers, abuser violence is reduced.
Legal vs. illegal
Having drugs be legal versus illegal also has an important effect on drug-related violence.
Illegal drugs means criminal activity. As the suppliers and distributors of illegal drugs are criminals, they will disregard law. This makes violence possible. As they have no legal means of recourse against those with whom they dispute, they use whatever means are available to them to resolve the dispute. This usually means violence. As the legal barrel of a gun is unavailable, they use the literal barrel of a gun.
By removing the criminality of the substances, the suppliers and distributors of illegal drugs become irrelevant. Normal business supply and distribution networks, standards and practices (and regulation) become the norm. As legal businesses, the suppliers and distributors have recourse to the law, and legal means to resolve disputes. Thus the literal barrel of a gun becomes irrelevant, replaced by the legal barrel of a gun.
Benefits unrelated to violence
Drug legalization also provides several other benefits.
Legalization improves control over quality of illegal drugs. By having the FDA regulate drug quality, “bad” drugs and drugs of varying potency are less frequent. This provides a more stable drug experience, reducing overdoses and unexpected side effects from adulterants.
Legalization provides tax revenue. By taxing drug sales, the government receives direct revenue that can be used to fund drug treatment and reduce the deficit.
A Final Word
As a longtime drug user (and sometimes abuser), I applaud anyone who chooses to stay drug free. But I also feel that any adult that chooses to use drugs should be able to. I do feel that treatment for addiction is critical, as is changing the home and societal causes of addiction. More importantly, I DO NOT condone drug use of any kind for children. The laws enforcing this should be extremely strong-none of the nicotine mamby-pamby lax enforcement-our children are our future-we have a responsibility to the future to see that they grow up right.
Tibetan Buddhist Lotus Deity Summary
| Location | Element | Buddha | Consort | Buddha-realm | Color | Ray | Throne | Implement | Enemy | Virtue | Attendants |
| Center | Ether | Vairochana | Akasha Dhatvishvari | All-pervading circle/Densely arrayed | White | Blue | Lion | eight-spoked wheel | Ignorance | All-accommodating, embodiment of emptiness | |
| East | Water | Vajrasattva Akshobhya | Buddhalochana | Complete joy | Blue | White | Elephant | five-pronged vajra scepter | Violent Anger | Mirror-like Wisdom | Kshitigarbha, Lasya, Maitreya, Pushpa |
| South | Earth | Ratnasambhava | Mamaki | Glorious | Yellow | Yellow | Horse | wish-granting gem | Pride | Equality | AkashaGarbha, Mala, Samantabhadra, Dhupa |
| West | Fire | Amitabha | Pandaravasini | Blissful | Red | Red | Peacock | lotus | Attachment | Discrimination | Avalokiteshvara, Manjushri, Gita, Aloka |
| North | Air | Amoghasiddhi | Samayatara | Perfected actions | Green | Green | Eagle | vajra cross | Jealousy | All-accomplishing Wisdom | Vajrapani, Sarvanivarnaviskambhin, Gandha, Nartya |
Portland Electronic Poet, Program Seventeen
Hello. I am E.P. This is program number seventeen, a fragment of a long prose poem by Xzemach Faccio.
Day 281: I think they will try to do it with water. The glass vials look as if they have been filled during the night. One has a greenish tint to it. This must be nearer the end. SOMEONE MUST HAVE SWITCHED THEM AROUND. There are seven long beaded edges waiting for their treatment. A light golden dust from yesterday covers all the surrounding surfaces.
Day 282: Three young, brown-skinned girls, naked from the waist up, splash in the river. A man stands near the waterfall, hatted against the mists. VULVATE GASTROPOD. ORPHEUS. ARGONAUT. The red-faced Monkeyman hunkers against the cold, his long hair orange in the forest. The irons all gather dust, their noses pointed, their handles, handless.
Day 283: THE FROGS ARE COMING. First, one, in the distance. And then, maybe five. And then hundreds. They have come from the North. This is the first time. There have never been frogs. First they are very loud. Then they are silent. They wait for a sign. I MUST BE MORE CAREFUL WHOM I HONOR. I MUST WATCH FOR BARED TEETH. Whom to trust?
Day 284: The paired shoes are stacked like corded wood but asunder. Today it might rain. They said it might rain today. The thirst.
Day 285: A yellow gloved hand beckons from the green arch-way. Next to it a young girl in a stained white skirt opens her arms and reaches out, towards me. She fronts her mother, bare-breasted against the blue sky. They stand in a field of white flowers that flutter like butterflies.
Day 286: The fledgeling crow basks in the morning sunlight. The man leans now into the waterfall, his arm folded against his head.
Day 287: The large-faced woman fills the oriel, her face. Her face looks warmer now, her eyes. Her hair. The curled lizard. Its pinhole eyes and curled fingers. The arm and hammer. THE CASCADE OF THE EARTH’S WATERS and the upside down fish. Topsy Turvey.
Day 288: Only her big head and neck show now from the window. The stalagmites are deeply shaded against the star-night sky. The blunted stele. The organpipe cactus and the wind. THE CRUMBLED RUINS AROUND MAY 4TH. The strange old man puts down his briefcase, removes his hat and points a gun at the sky. He looks into the mirror. Behind him his dog. His dog woofs: his dogwolf. The blunted Sphinx.
Day 289: Now the woman is gone. The blunted phallus.
Day 290: A large mist rises above September and October. The hanging gardens in the mist. The purple haze, the catwalks, the rainbows. The large woman’s head telescopes back into the opening. The blunted yoni. The graph indicates that nothing has changed. SKELJB. The grey bedspread has leached the ink from my forgotten pen. The black stain spreads along its folds.
Day 291: The vines encrust her neck, a hummingbird at her throat. The dragon flies. The basket-ladle holds the single dusty rose. Diamond girls. The red sequinned pumps. The large lit building at night. The young girl scolds the haired-bird. Olio extra vergine di oliva. TRUE ROME ANTS.
Day 292: Ursa major, Leo minor, her broken leg, the tongues. THE GUARDIANS OF THE SARCOPHAGUS, the ivory skull.
Day 293: She primps now in the gated mirror, her eyes, her mouth. Her long fingers.
Day 294: The spider’s webs. The drunken birds. The mountains and the snow. The veiled lizards. The hypnotized man. The brushed fish. The large tongue. The watching Buddha. The hung eye. The dripping nozzle.
Day 295: I wait. I grind. THE THIRST.
Day 296: The large burning tree. The smoke from the fires. The young girl plays with the gynecoid doll. Her Mother. Each strand of hair behind her small ears. Like glass. THE RYTHM OF HER BEATING WINGS. The dust from the horses’ hooves. How long can I wait?
Day 297: Waking up to honeycombed clouds in disbelief. The shrine to Harry still there on the rise. The dark rise. The cloud shadows defining the distance and shape of the hills. Lagomorphs. Their delicacy of front limb. The black tip of their ears. Their slender speed and grace. The sticky flies, their frantic pulse. Desert monk O.D.’s on banana and lays low on his flattened belly under the table in the shade. Waiting for the wild horses to drink.
Day 298: RATTLESNAKE GIRL CRIES OUT FOR LOVE AND PASSION.
Day 299: Monkeyman looks for the texture of the hills and mind and the nature of self-destruction. Is it my lot to warble in the melancholia? The rumble of the earth revolving through space returns in this basin of silence. The last cigar of this celebration almost gone. Descriptions of this only one self.
Day 300: This day of perfect loveliness, many clouds, protection from the sun. No wind now. Summer turning to Fall between yesterday and today. The equinox between love and separation. The sky low, the world so small between love and lonliness.
Day 301: The shadows move the hills closer. They get washed back with the light. This ochre, green and tan crusting up to dryness.
Day 302: Today the man with stars and shaved head. His enlarged cheeks, his long nose. HIS TOO MANY TEETH! Now it is night and the crickets. Something is chewing in the walls. I check the case. The pins have been removed. The swelling on my cheek. I look into the mirror. The strange old man peers back. YESTERDAY I DRANK THE LIQUID. The pain. I am crying. HYPOMNESIA. I don’t remember. Why?
THAT’S ALL FOLKS!



