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New Year’s Day. A relatively clean house. Dishes done, tidy kitchen, only one load of wash pending. Just me and S up. E up, off to breakfast with a friend. Just hanging out, dinner, S to bed. Up late listening to Sabbath and Purple.
E had a thing with a friend, slept in, vacuumed, cleaned the bathroom. Stepped in cat poop. Watch a friends’ kids. Cincinnati chili for dinner. Up late, sleep in. Another lazy day-the house is pretty clean, so not much to do. More lazy, kept the house withing reason, up date, Church, usher, shop, in bed at the normal time, hard to get to sleep, woke up a bunch, got up, to work. Quiet.

Links: Can We Escape Narcissism in America?, The Brutal Truth About How Childhood Determines Your Economic Destiny, If It Wasn’t For 9/11, Republicans Would Be Obsolete, Increased Government Spending Has Republicans In A Panic, Guess What Happened The Last Time The Price Of Oil Crashed Like This?

Listening to: Anugama, Gamelan, Snakefinger, Anugama, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Rush, Antranik Askarian and Khatchadour Khatchaturian, U2, Master Musicians of Jajouka, Kaminari Synthesis, Beatmapper, Philip Glass, Steve Roach, Peter Gabriel, Brand X, Rolling Calf Sinfonette, Babe The Blue Ox, Moby, Tuu, Police, Daniel Lanois, Who, Frank Zappa, David Canright, Neil Young, insanic4, Tuxedomoon, Dead Can Dance, The Clash, Smashing Pumpkins, Gamelan Semar Pegulingan, The Clash, Peter Gabriel, Peter Gabriel, Deben Bhattacharya, Biosphere, Anugama, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, King Crimson, Constance Demby, Material, Donna Summer, Glenn Gould, Cream, Primus, Touch 33, Rush, Robert Rich, Gentle Giant, Rush, Hooverphonic, Pink Floyd, kARHu, Yoshikazu Iwamoto, Beck, Henryk Górecki, Gabrielle Roth and The Mirrors, Steve Roach, KMFDM, Latin Playboys, Gamelan, Blitzen Trapper, Charlotte Moorman, Tao Te Ching, Ravi Shankar, Sneaker Pimps, Vangelis, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Philip Glass, Bill Bruford, Brand X, Aphex Rock, Todd Rundgren, The Upsetter, Alice in Chains, Giacomo Puccini, Rage Against The Machine, The Residents, Eno & Fripp, Deftones, Peter Gabriel, Toots & The Maytals, Wendy Carlos, Al Gromer Khan, Baxter

TGIF. Stepped into a mess of my own making. Holiday party on a boat last night. Very windy. Lost power at work, insane time getting home. Worked on stuff, long time getting home. M broke his arm again.

It’s now Monday. Didn’t do much this weekend, except for the gamelan gig at Yale Union Saturday. No wash, no dishes, barely cooked. I had such high hopes…but Monday evening ended up getting it all done-woke up Tuesday to a tidier house, but insanity at work. M didn’t clean the cat box. arrrrgh.

And now Wednesday. Keeping the house clean. No gamelan, now Thursday. Getting through stuff, house is staying clean, after a fashion-need to vacuum and clean off the dinner table.
So Friday is here-slacked last night, get to it tonight. Kids are on vacation, no gift card yet. E picked me up downtown, M had a redo on his cast. Goodwill, got a pizza, S to bed, up late watching South Park and Person of Interest. Got up earlyish to take S to church for rehearsal. Did sound, libe, gas, home, got the Christmas saver, checks, can’t get my amp fixed until the New Year. Shopping at Fry’s, Target, Goodwill, Freddy’s.
Sunday: early to church, play, home via Goodwill, lunch with E, shopping, home, lazy, S to bed, up today, easy to work, stepped into a mess, part mine, part someone else’s. Quiet evening. Easy in.

So, in between Christmas and New Years. Christmas was nice, shopping, church, lazy, more stuff, church. Helped a parent with WordPress. Hard to get back to work, and now another 5 days off. We’re way short of cash.

So, it’s the end of one calendar year and the start of another. In the past, this has been quite an occasion, especially one memorable one-1983, maybe? In any case, I’m hoping my finances improve some, I want to make more music, and the inner dev stuff.

Happy New Years, everyone!

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Another cop who killed a black guy not indicted. Protests, but no rioting that I heard about. C is either conservative or contrarian. M is def. a liberal. I remember in ’92, my boss called me at work saying that the cops who beat King were not guilty. I asked him if the rioting had started yet…the next day I was at the ARCO refinery in Carson, and I could see the columns of smoke rising from South Central. I left work early.

I’ve had a bit of a financial setback. If you’re a human and reading this, please tip me. We’re going to have to watch our pennies for the next month or 2. I woke up very early because of it, and after mulling things over, I daydreamed and wrote some lyrics. Unfortunately, I didn’t put them to paper. I think I’m going to start putting them to paper, then to music-probably just guitar and automated bass and drums. Maybe piano. Low tech folkie singer-songwriter stuff-I have all the right gear. Who knows? by this time next year, I might be famous! That would be a hoot-going out on the road at 53…

Now it’s Tuesday-now it’s Wednesday. Busy weekend and week. Friday was quiet, Saturday went to a memorial service for the baby. E picked me up, and we went to a Christmas fair at the expo center-lots of junk, but I got to sample wine & booze, including a delicious eggnog liqueur. Church Sunday, shopping, slacked on cleaning. Monday, back into a client drama, S to dentist, met them in Gladstone, looking for assembly clothes. Same Tues, good performance review, cleaned & laundry, woke up early, dreaming about being in a car with girls, listening to a station that cuts off songs.

And now Thursday. Gamelan was ok, but I’m messed up on the imbal on Djagung-Djagung. Dreamed about watching a performance, annoying narrator, E yelling “Shut up,” security coming, E leaves, I go downstairs, come back after I find out the play lasts 4 hours, they’re throwing squishy balls around, and water. Christmas party tonight, on a boat, and it’s going to be windy.

Links: State Terrorism and Racist Violence in the Age of Disposability, Republicans ‘dedicated with utter servility’ to the needs of the 1 percent, The Intellectual Condescension of White Liberals, 5 Reasons America Should Be Ashamed of Itself, The Wages of Global Capitalism, The Danger of American Fascism, The Right-Wing Myth That America Was Originally a Theocracy Is So Wrong, Democracy Crisis: We Are Enslaving Ourselves to Illegitimate Power, The Irony and the Ecstasy, The Obama Recovery Has Been Miles Better Than the Bush Recovery, Conservative Lies About Why the Economy Is Finally Recovering, A Multi-Billion Dollar Secret, China Passes US To Take Number One Spot As World’s Largest Economy, Propaganda Has Triumphed over Journalism, Are We Becoming a Theocracy?, How Would Today’s Republicans Treat Jesus?, A Society of Captives, Why Millions of Christian Evangelicals Oppose Obamacare and Civil Rights, Can the Left Launch Its Own Tea Party?, America’s Obscenely Rich Know Full Well That They Are Destroying America, How We Can Release Ourselves From the Tyrannical Grip of Corporate Power

Listening to: Harold Budd, Filter, Benedictine Monks of Santo Domingo de Silos, Coyote Oldman, Hole, French Frith Kaiser Thompson, Hawkwind, Dead Can Dance, Anne Dudley, Beck, art bears, Peter Gabriel, Andy Summers & Robert Fripp, Burning Spear, Neu!, fIREHOSE, Harold Budd & Brian Eno, Dr. Fiorella Terenzi, Franz Schubert, Rage Against The Machine, Rob Zombie, Rage Against The Machine, Meat Beat Manifesto, Tabla Beat Science, Anugama, Wendy Carlos, Jean Michel Jarre, Ravel, Flaming Lips, Johannes Brahms, art bears, Herb Ernst, Grateful Dead, Amethystium, Steven Halpern, Adam Trainer, Anne Dudley, Thomas Dolby, U2, Nirvana, Echoes of Nature, AC/DC, DOCKTA VALKUS, Grateful Dead, Golden Earring, Andy Summers & Robert Fripp, Rush, Philip Glass, Rage Against The Machine, Morphine, Tool, Jefferson Starship, Pat Metheny, Grateful Dead, Anne Clark, Augustus Pablo meets The Upsetter, Century of Aeroplanes, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, The Clash, A Beautiful Machine, adrian juarez, Grateful Dead, Babe The Blue Ox, Djinnestan, Michael Stearns, Tao Te Ching, Steve Winwood, The Smashing Pumpkins, Tuxedomoon, Kansas, Brian Parnham (with Steve Roach), Peter Gabriel, Bach, Todd Rundgren’s Utopia, The Art Of Noise

It’s Monday, I’m so, so tired. The weekend was quiet-we gathered up pine boughs for the Advent Spiral at school, shopped a little, went to church Sunday. I got to bed early, but woke up a few times. Not much else-the house is pretty clean, though I don’t know how much energy I’ll have tonight (enough to run the dishwasher, a load of laundry and clean the cat box). S got to sleep in good order. I went to bed a bit late.
I feel better today-no idea why yesterday was so bad.
Wednesday: woke up to the news that our gamelan’s music director’s 3 week old baby has died of meningitis. Sad. So, so sad. Just so tragic.
Long commute home, plated dinner, gamelan was somber, house has Christmas boxes unpacked everywhere. Cleaned the cat box. Watched South Park. That is all.
Got a cash thing from work that will save Christmas. E got rid of some of her parents’ jewelry too. We’re still underwater, but this helps. I need to fix up my stick and sell it, and the tabla.

Links: Thanksgiving and the Socialist Imaginary, The Conservative March Toward a Society of Sociopaths, Dear Evangelicals: You’re Being Had, How Every Part of American Life Became a Police Matter, Are Humans Going Extinct?, The American Dream Is Dead, Slap-in-the-Face Wealth Gap Images, A Genuine Movement for Social Change, How the Young Are Indoctrinated to Obey, How White Fundamentalists Are Roiling America, Secrets of the right-wing brain, The Long, Dark Shadows of Plutocracy, An Economic Agenda for America: 12 Steps Forward, A therapist goes to middle school and tries to sit still and focus, How The GOP Is Coming Apart At The Seams, Elites Have Forced America into a National Psychosis, Conservative Christian Calls For ‘A Biblical View On Computer Programming’, I’ve Crunched the Numbers, and the American Dream Is Dead, Is the Democratic Party Relevant Anymore?

Listening to: Material, Allan Holdsworth, Cult, Jeff Beck, d’incise, Bill Bruford, Billy Thorpe, Mickey Hart, Alvari Lume, Tao Te Ching, A Beautiful Machine, Pink Floyd, Rush, Can, Clockcleaner, Thomas Dolby, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Peter Gabriel, Rush, Oingo Boingo, David Sylvian, Carrie Yury, Bhagavad Gita, Coyote Oldman, Beck, Jethro Tull, Boccherini, Bhagavad Gita, Rush, Gyuto Tantric University, Bitplasma Division, Renaldo & The Loaf, Philip Glass, Peter Gabriel, Philip Glass, Jalikebba Kuyateh & the Toubabs, Genesis, Sergei Rachmaninoff, George Clinton, Ludwig van Beethoven, Art Of Noise, Hole, Golden Earring, Brian Eno, Benedictine Monks of Santo Domingo de Silos, Mickey Hart, Minister, Babe The Blue Ox, Einstuerzende Neubauten, Biosphere, mystified, Bill Bruford, Radiohead, Piotr Ilyitch Tchaikovsky, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Gamelan, Babe The Blue Ox, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Allan Holdsworth, Anugama, Gamelan, Snakefinger, Anugama, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Rush, Antranik Askarian and Khatchadour Khatchaturian, U2, Master Musicians of Jajouka, Kaminari Synthesis, Beatmapper, Philip Glass, Steve Roach, Peter Gabriel, Brand X, Rolling Calf Sinfonette, Babe The Blue Ox, Moby, Collection, Daniel Lanois, Police, Frank Zappa, David Canright, Neil Young, insanic4, Tibetan Book of the Dead, Mozart, Tibetan Book of the Dead, Duran Duran, Art Of Noise, Brian Eno, Gamelan, Andy Summers & Robert Fripp, Giles Reaves, 311, Chick Corea, Ben Bracken & Eric Cook, KMFDM, Scott Smallwood

It’s now Friday…It’s now Saturday…it’s now Sunday. House is tidy, clothes and dishes clean. Went to a school meeting with S’s teacher. She’s the perfect Waldorf first grader. Meeting today with C’s teacher-he’s doing great too. Watched kids, took a nap.
And it’s Monday. Thankfully it’s a short week-I need the sleep.
Now Tuesday-I suppose I should post this one and start the next. Ferguson, MO is in flames, as a repeat of L.A. ’92. This time they didn’t even bother going to trial.
Wednesday-a half day, but gamelan tonight. M got his cast off, but his forearm is bowed. Doc says it’ll take care of itself. Yeah, right. Say the march from the bus last night-the driver was eager to get past it. Nice work gift coming-it’ll save Christmas for us. The house needs cleaning before tomorrow.

Page 23, Sentence 5: “But more than that, it was when I read Kurt Vonnegut’s Cat’s Cradle that I really understood my feelings about Israel.”, Me of Little Faith.

Links: Dave Grohl is Killing Rock ‘n’ Roll, Footnotes to the Prologue of a Manifesto, How Western Civilization Ended, Circa 2014, Which Side Are You On?, The 1 percent is gutting America’s middle class, Is God The Problem With American Politics?, The VERY Bad News FOR THE GOP in the GOP’s Midterm Victory, Why We Need Professional Revolutionists, A Simple Yet Powerful Lesson About Privilege, Being Black, the Real Indictment in Ferguson and the USA, Most White People in America Are Completely Oblivious, Ferguson and the “Us vs. Them” Illusion, Ferguson, Goddamn, Intelligence Questions

Listening to: Brian Eno – David Byrne, Yoshikazu Iwamoto, Godhead, Bob Seger, Todd Rundgren, mystified, Brian Eno, Anugama, K.M.Krebs, Brian Eno, Peter Gabriel, Addis Ababa Children  & The Upsetters, Harry Partch, Brahms, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Gyudmed Tantric Monastery, Thomas Dolby, Lili De La Mora, Dissidenten, Aphex Twin, Beethoven, Dead Can Dance, J. Dippold, Matmos, Blue Man Group, Anton Batagov, Beatmapper, Lezrod, Veruca Salt, Constance Demby, Beck, Andy Summers & Robert Fripp, mystified, Frank Zappa, Grateful Dead, The Aphex Twin, Peter Gabriel, Mozart, Jefferson Starship, Rush, French Frith Kaiser Thompson, Rage Against The Machine, Melvins, Cream, Daniel Lanois, Harold Budd & Brian Eno, o.m.s. – n.m.a., Beck, Skinny Puppy, John Lennon, Daniel Lanois, John Coltrane, Kittie, Black Sabbath, Gamelan Semar Pegulingan, Beck, Tao Te Ching, The Tibetan Book of the Dead, Mark Hamn, The Cynic Project, Yes, Tao Te Ching, Peter Gabriel, KMFDM, Brahms, Clockcleaner, Zakir Hussain, chen zimbalista/oron schwartz, Flores, mystified, Material, Heart, Tool, david byrne, Al Gromer Khan, Ghana, eneftze, The Beat, Jean-Luc Ponty, Soundwalk

It’s Friday. Got in on time, woo-hoo. Got stuff done, almost time to go. Home, got some cool iPhone music software, daydreaming, tidy, pizza.
Saturday-got sick. whoopee. Delivered E to the train, hung out at home, went back to get her, walked around the mall, got an upset stomach, that got way worse. Spent the rest of the day in pain and in bed. Odd dreams-hiding from a shooter, fighting with a guy, driving on an indoor freeway.
Sunday, much the same, stayed home Monday. Went to work Tuesday, probably shouldn’t have. Lantern walk-very cold. Work Weds, not 100%. Bailed on gamelan. Big snow Thurs fizzled out, worked from home anyways.
Friday, tried to get things done, but not everything. Home, suck meal at Hometown, pick up M from school thing. Lazy Sat-laundry, dishes. C overnight at a friends’. Sunday-skipped church, laundry, dishes, sweeping, not much else.
It’s Wednesday, C sprained his wrist really bad-we thought it was broken. Not much else, construction on the Sellwood bridge. I’m trying to go to bed earlier and do segmented sleep: working towards OOBE. Money is really tight right now: please tip the writer.

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Listening to: (I love having iTunes back to reporting play times!)

Monday-missed the bus-saw it go, sprinted after it to no avail. Got to hang out at home for a little bit. Busy, stuff, left early to go to M school parent meetings. Home, dinner, S to bed, Blacklist, bed. Woken up at 1 by the smoke alarm-a candle melted the plastic off the side of the glass-very smelly.
Tues-Very tired now, tons to do. Rep. Bonamici asked me if I voted on the train this morning. Daydreaming.
And now it’s Thursday. No gamelan last night. Not much else. The GOP has the Senate-it’s going to be an ugly 2 years. At least we can smoke dope in Oregon…Dreamed about sneaking away from a house when visitors came.

Links: Why conservative Christians would have hated Jesus, Your Reaction To An Image Of Maggots Might Determine If You Are Liberal Or Conservative, Building an Escalation Machine, Capitalism Is a Tumor on the Body Politic, The Disease of Being Busy, The Corporate Coup d’Etat is Nearly Complete, National Review Warns Republicans Not To Govern Because It’s A ‘Trap’, 11 Ways to Cope With Republican America, U.S. No Longer An Actual Democracy, How Ronald Reagan and the Supreme Court Turned American Politics Into a Cesspool, No, Democrats Aren’t a Bunch of Hopeless Wimps, Are We Raising a Generation of Helpless Kids?, Dear Democratic Party: Make No Mistake About It, Republicans Didn’t Win – You Lost, 5 Facts About How America Is Rigged for a Massive Wealth Transfer to the Rich

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Friday, Halloween. whoopee. Pizza lunch, busy, to L’s house for more pizza and trick or treating. No boys. Home, pharma, TV.
Sat.-sleep in, lazy, libe, shop, just like every Sat. Had lunch at Pizzicato’s, went to a small party at a church friends’-our 16th anniversary.
Sun.-church, lazy, nap, dinner, S to bed, laundry, dishes. Another normal Sunday.

Links: The Shadow Surveillance State Is Really a Secret Religion, Twelve Ways Jim Crow Is Winning in 2014, Millennials Aren’t Cheap, They’re Broke, Why the GOP Is Going to Be in Deep Trouble If Their Crazy Tea Party Candidates Get into the Senate, At the Mad Hatter’s Tea Party, Fear Is the Entrée, The Act of Voting vs. the Controlling Interests of the US Empire, 5 Ways Most Americans Are Blind to How Their Country Is Stacked for the Wealthy, Gamergate and the politicization of absolutely everything

Listening to: Rush, Can, Peter Gabriel, Clockcleaner, Thomas Dolby, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Peter Gabriel, Rush, Oingo Boingo, David Sylvian, Carrie Yury, Bhagavad Gita, Coyote Oldman, The Art Of Noise, Beck, Jethro Tull, Mstislav Rostropovich, Bhagavad Gita, Rush, Gyuto Tantric University, Bitplasma Division, Renaldo & The Loaf, Philip Glass, Peter Gabriel, Philip Glass, Jalikebba Kuyateh &the Toubabs, Genesis, Sergei Rachmaninoff, George Clinton, Ludwig van Beethoven, Art Of Noise, Hole, Golden Earring, Brian Eno, Benedictine Monks of Santo Domingo de Silos, Mickey Hart, Minister, Todd Rundgren’s Utopia, Babe The Blue Ox, Einstuerzende Neubauten, Biosphere, mystified, Bill Bruford, Radiohead, Piotr Ilyitch Tchaikovsky , Brian Eno – David Byrne, Gamelan, Babe The Blue Ox

2:25, Monday-no headache yet. Didn’t last…Home, dinner, S to bed. One of the Portland Waldorf stalwarts is sick. Another headache just before bed. Dreamed about aliens again-this time they landed, but their cloaking failed, so we talked to them-didn’t say much-told us to leave. Another about racing cars, a ferry and people jumping off the side and swimming.

Tuesday’s gone-a bit wet, trying to be productive, small headache, home, dinner, bed, didn’t really get to sleep until very late, then S came in and wanted water, plus E snoring. <sigh> Without coffee I’m going to be really really slow.
And there’s Wednesday. Not much different-wet, work, meetings, stuff. Home, this close to missing the bus, dinner, help C with math, gamelan, home, more math, bed. Dreamed about pooping in a meeting room with stalls, and scary masks in them that a schoolmate was boasting about. Parents came in, and I shooed them out bwecause a meeting was starting. Tried to find a shirt. Meeting was about buying a company.

Links: 9 Events Which Created the Environment for America’s Emerging Police State, The Stark Facts of Global Greed, a Disease as Challenging as Climate Change, Godless Millennials Could End the Power of the Religious Right, How the GOP’s Ideology Is Destroying America’s Future, Higher Education and the New Brutalism, The Coming Revolution: Evolutionary Leap or Descent Into Chaos and Violence?, The Myth of the Free Press, Ideology and Investment, So Long, Liberty: 10 Ways Americans Have Lost Their Rights

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Here we are, at Friday again. It’s chilly, and hard to get up. I’m looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. And tomorrow is the last day of coffee. Yikes. The last time I kicked coffee was when S was born, or maybe when we moved up here. It’s been a while, in any case.

OK, so left a bit early, slept! on the train and almost missed my stop, E to school, all to school for a thing, drive C to a middle school dance at PWS, back to school, home, pizza, pick C up, sleep.
Slept in a bit, tidy, coffee, breakfast, UI work. Gonna be windy today.
Lazy Sat, M to church, picked him up, pj’s all day.
Church Sun, shop, headache, libe, nap, dinner, more headache. Dreamed about aliens attacking and mowing down our house.
Woke up early, working on stuff. Meetings, fuzzy with no caffeine.

These are some pretty cool online comics: Stand Still Stay Silent and A Redtail’s Dream.

Links: Why conservatives prefer propaganda to reality, 7 Facts That Show the American Dream Is Dead, Krugman Dismantles the Right’s Hysterical Fear of Actual Democracy, Inside the conservative brain, Can Capitalism and Democracy Coexist?, Apocalypse Now

Listening to: Blue Oyster Cult, Harold Budd & Brian Eno, The B-52’s, Tibetan Book of the Dead, David Sylvian, Collection, Dutilleux, John Lee Hooker, Gultskra Artikler, Babe The Blue Ox, Tori Amos, Nina Gordon, Karawitan, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Philip Glass, The Smashing Pumpkins, Sly & Robbie, The Orb, Philip Glass, Harold Budd, Japan, Arcticology, Richard Bone, Kittie, Brian Eno, Byron Metcalf featuring Steve Roach, Genesis, Oingo Boingo, Legendary Pink Dots, Devo, Siouxsie and the Banshees, The Umma Project, U2, Centrozoon, Deftones, Djinnestan, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Rush, Gamelan Semar Pegulingan, Jeffrey Fayman & Robert Fripp, eneftze, Philip Glass

Wednesday, and it’s rainy. Not so bad, still in a malaise. Dreamed about trying to find the right jacket for a fancy dinner, but none were right.

Easy in. Just out of ideas-UI design. First day of 1/2 coffee dosage. Got a headache around 3, feeling fuzzy, fell asleep on the train, ate, put S to bed, fell asleep and went right to bed too.

Woke up at 4, dozed. Dreamed about water skating down a river, looking at skating down a waterfall. Went to prep for a work Italian dinner instead. Propositioned the office manager. She said, “come in early tomorrow.” Only one thing would’ve made that dream better…

Easy in, found a thing, working on a bunch of stuff. Home, tidy, folding laundry, juicing, dinner. Digestive system is a bit sketchy-prolly the caffeine some. More tidy, to bed late, the thing.

Page 23, Sentence 5: “Right now, the triumph of market logic, with its ethos of domination and fierce competition, is paralyzing almost all serious efforts to respond to climate change”, This Changes Everything.

Links: Economists Say We Should Tax The Rich At 90 Percent, Superrich Have Grabbed Half the World’s Assets, Why Conservatives Opt for Propaganda Over Reality, 200+ Consciousness Raising Documentaries, The Impulse Society, Why I’m Worried About America, The Dimming Prospects for Human Survival

Listening to: Rush, Bleupulp, ZZ Top, Rage Against The Machine, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Al Gromer Khan, Skinny Puppy, Portishead, The Crystal Method, Jethro Tull, Amorphous Androgynous, Art Of Noise, Rage Against The Machine, Mike Oldfield, Aashid Himons, Babe The Blue Ox, Japan, Earth, Brainscapes, Carbon Based Lifeforms, Rolling Calf Sinfonette, Shambala, Exoxen, Dream Syndicate, Latin Playboys, forma, George Clinton, Todd Rundgren, art bears, Bhagavad Gita, Brian Eno, Babe The Blue Ox, Hafíz Kani Karaca, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Wendy Carlos, Kansas, Gender Wayang, Harry Partch, Helmet, Gamelan Mitra Kusuma, Legendary Pink Dots, The Flaming Lips, A Beautiful Machine, Deborah Martin, Dissidenten, Robert Fripp and Brian Eno, Peter Gabriel, Charles Lucy, Byron Metcalf featuring Steve Roach, J. S. Bach, Tuxedomoon, Pink Floyd, Alva Noto, Brian Eno, Todd Rundgren, Peter Gabriel, Steve Roach & Vir Unis, Dissidenten, aodl, Roger Powell, R. Carlos Nakai, Philip Glass, Pretenders, Steve Roach, Vidna Obmana, Daniel Lanois, Benedictine Monks of Santo Domingo de Silos, Craig Padilla, Steve Roach, Henry Cow, Todd Rundgren, mystified, Bill Bruford, Beck

I’m so not anything right now. I’m cutting off caffeine after reading Murray’s book. Three shots instead of 4 today and yesterday. I’m having a strong reaction to “Don’t Misunderstand Me” by Rossington Collins-especially the piano breaks. Not really understanding it.

I woke up early to S next to me. Dreamed about being in a gym or classroom throwing balls, then dressed in a tux talking to HS friends, and an enemy, and something about getting a ball and getting money. What’s up with that?

Easy in, but still fractured. Something’s going on, but I don’t know what it is yet. I’m feeling things deeply-maybe fallout from the TEX event? Messed something up, abandoned something else, started in on a third and a UI design. Easy home, the usual.

Listening to:White Zombie, Beatmapper, Tibetan Book of the Dead, fIREHOSE, Jethro Tull, Constance Demby, Jeff Beck, Dockta Valkus, Steve Roach & Robert Rich, Peter Gabriel, Tool, Megadeth, Art Of Noise, Philip Glass, Brian Eno, Peter Gabriel, EL Heath, Einstuerzende Neubauten, Chick Corea, Steve Reich, Cream, Smashing Pumpkins, Gamelan du Palais Royal de Yogyakarta, Philip Glass, Brainscapes, Cream, Michael Stearns, Genesis, Babe The Blue Ox, The Classics, David Hudson, Todd Rundgren, Led Zeppelin, Blue Man Group, Raga, Rush

Another Monday. Hard to get to sleep last night. Got up at 1 with restless legs. Kind of dozed, dreamed about helping someone at work with setting up their new computer-I was shirtless and worrying about BO. Easy in. Meetings, tasking. Still unmotivated.

I love my organizer, though-it sort of looks like this, but New Mexico. I’m trying to get started with the GTD methodology.

Tidy, dinner, S to bed, same ‘ol,

Page 23, Sentence 5: “Saying strange things to it, she said.”, Robogenesis.

Links: The Evaporation of Democracy, The Imperative of Revolt, The Rise of Neoliberalism, As Casualties Mount, Scientists Say Global Warming Has Been “Hugely Underestimated”, The Global Culture of Violence, The Culture of War

Listening to: Utopia, petr drkula, Adam Trainer, Brian Eno, Roger Eno, Henry Cow, Gamelan, R.E.M., Steven Halpern, Drepung Tehor Khangtsen, Pink Floyd, Michael Stearns, Bleupulp, Police, Mogwai, Constance Demby, Brian Eno, Harry Partch, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Brian Eno, Brian Eno, Robert Rich

Here it is, Friday.

S got up early-she thought it was late at night. Wet out, but not really rainy. Easy in. Severely unmotivated. C has bugs. M fell and has a hurt wrist (he has broken forearm). Tidy, dishes, wash, dinner. Update my HS class page.
Sat-slept in a bit. Lazy, wash. A thing for E. M is OK. Errands-libe, halloween store, shop. Make dinner. Up late, the thing.
Blew off church. Keep the house clean-dishes, laundry, kids have lice, M is miserable.

Links: From Indigenous Socialism to Colonial Capitalism, American Schools Are Training Kids for a World That Doesn’t Exist, Manufactured Emergency: The Neoliberal Assault on Michigan, US elites beginning to realize there’s a problem, 5 Reasons America Is Not—And Has Never Been—A Christian Nation, Teaching People to Hate Their Own Govt. Is at the Core of the Project to Destroy the Middle Class, It’s Time to Stop Letting Sociopaths in Power Tell Us What Makes Us Happy, A Unified Theory of Muppet Types

Listening to: Helmet, Brian Eno, Constance Demby, K.M.Krebs, Tao Te Ching, Gamelan, Arcticology, Brendan Kinsella, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Anonymous 4, The Smiths, Tibetan Book of the Dead, Brian Parnham (with Steve Roach), Mozart, Brainscapes, 311

Rainy last night, damp today. Slept through, though E moved because I was sleeping too close to her. Dreams of planes-that usually means a visit from de uddah side. Not, though-took DXM to sleep.

Easy in, but the trains were running late, a thing done, figured out another, thinking about a 3rd, meeting. Home, E has a cold, cooked dinner, tidy, S to bed, more tidy, Up today, rainy and windy. Heavy traffic in, but a late train. I’m just drowning at work. Home, gamelan-more bonang.

If you’re feeling generous, please go to Class of 2015 8th grade trip-my middle son is looking for ways to pay for his 8th grade trip.

Thurs-up, headache, Hawthorne Bridge was jammed due to a murder at City Hall. In late, meetings. Just underwater. Home. Dinner, S to bed. Interesting thing happened-I fell asleep, woke up from a dream. I looked around, and when I closed my eyes again, I could see tendrils of light making up figures, moving around. This happened for about 2 minutes.

Page 23, Sentence 5: “I did not linger long enough to find out.”, Caffeinated.

Links: Survival of the Richest, Losing Our Way, Fundamentalist Freak-Out, How the Republican Hold on the South Could Collapse, Can Civilization Survive “Really Existing Capitalism”?, The Truth About the Conservative Mind, Business Elites Are Waging a Brutal Class War in America, How the media has helped normalize GOP crazy, Is This “American Exceptionalism”?, Americans Should Embrace their Radical History, Beyond Orwellian Nightmares and Neoliberal Authoritarianism, If the GOP has thoroughly accomplished one thing in the past 6 years, it’s this, Your Brain Is Flawed, The Age of Loneliness Is Killing Us, There’s an Overt Corporate Effort to Indoctrinate American Children,

Listening to:

So the week begins, again. Same as it ever was, to coin a phrase. Marriage equality is a tidal wave that will sweep the nation, leaving only the most backward in its wake.

I’m far from home and very tired, to coin another phrase. That one may be a bit more obscure, even though it’s from the same artist (sort of). That’ll send all of you frantically Googling to be the first to find it-and it’s the second result…

OK. so Sunday-church, lunch with Jr, Youth, M very tired and grumpy. Home, tidy-the house is rather clean right now. More changes to come. Dinner, S to bed. Up late-watched Walking Dead with M, hard to sleep.

So the day ended quietly, $$$ woes are less, but deferred a bit, got the limited, tidy, E to a meeting, dinner, S to bed, TV.

Page 23, Sentence 5: “It doesn’t come all the way inside the store, though.” Robopocalypse

Links: Revenge of the Unforgiven, 4 Reasons You Should Be Taking America’s Inequality Very Personally, What’s Really Killing the World Economy, Conservative Icon Federal Judge Sees the Light, Why We Should Be Seething With Anger Over Inequality

Listening to: Brian Eno – David Byrne, Peter Gabriel, Hooverphonic, Wendy Carlos, The Chemical Brothers, Karawitan, Debussy, Roger Eno, Bow Wow Wow, Todd Rundgren, Flores, mystified, Rage Against The Machine, Peter Gabriel, Brahms, The Orb, Genesis, Anonymous 4, Oingo Boingo, Peter Gabriel, attack attack attack, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Brian Eno, Create, Steve Reich, Fripp & Eno, Andy Summers & Robert Fripp, Gultskra Artikler, Captain Beefheart & His Magic Band, Steve Roach, Bhagavad Gita, Phillip Wilkerson, Genesis, Fred Yarm

…and the week is half over. At least marriage equality is hopeful. Busy at work, finishing up things. Not so easy home-Biden’s in town and the train and traffic were snarled. Tidy a little, gamelan. I played bonang again, with a slightly more involved set of patterns.
Thursday-another day-ran a bit late, but made it in. Got stuff done, home, folding laundry, S to bed-grumpy.
Friday-tired, easy in, got stuff done. Missed the limited, worked late. S to bed. The thing. Saturday-sleep in, M to church retreat. Home, hang out. $$$ woes-tip the blogger, talk to apt. manager. Rainy. Drinking wine.

Links: Democracy and Education in the 21st Century and Beyond, The Shock Doctrine of the Oligarchy Cannot Be Allowed to Debilitate Us, 5 Reasons Young People Are Indifferent or Outright Antagonistic Toward Religion, Cop Block And Anti-Government Extremists Are Using Liberals To Undermine Law Enforcement, This Is Why You Feel Tired… All The Time, ISIS, Ebola, and Why Fear of the Unknown Makes Us Stupid, Welcome to Coca-Cola Town, U.S.A., Texas Is Rapidly Turning Blue And Republicans Are About To Panic, Why the Right Is So Freaked Out about the Inconvenient Truths of Actual U.S. History, This Is Your Brain on Money, Americans Should Embrace their Radical History

Listening to: King Crimson, Melvins, Anthrax, Anugama, Dissidenten, acidage, Steve Roach, Al Gromer Khan, Steve Winwood, Clash, Ladysmith Black Mambazo, Brendan Kinsella, Gentle Giant, Charlie Parker, Allan Holdsworth, Philip Glass Ensemble, Creedence Clearwater Revival, Jefferson Starship, Dimitris, Tori Amos, The Tibetan Book of the Dead, Brian Eno – David Byrne, White Zombie, Brian Eno, AC/DC, Tuu, Dizzy Gillespie, Andy Summers & Robert Fripp, Toru Takemitsu , Constance Demby, UK, Baxter, Eno-Byrne, Peter Gabriel, Frank Zappa, Allan Holdsworth, Steve Reich, Fiona Apple, Gentle Giant, Harold Budd, George Harrison, Brian Eno, Larajii, King Crimson, Juluka, Steve Roach, Metallica, Anugama, Jefferson Starship, Steve Roach, Jean Michel Jarre, Kansas, Genesis, Henry Cow, The Flaming Lips, Nirvana, The Pretenders, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Steve Roach, Bhagavad Gita, Art Of Noise, David Sylvian, Philip Glass, Art Bears, Rush, Tom Tom Club, A Beautiful Machine, Rage Against The Machine, Eno-Byrne, No Doubt, Daniel Lanois, Babe The Blue Ox, Juluka, Andy Summers & Robert Fripp, Mogwai, Emil Klotzsch, Material + William S. Burroughs, Ustad Zakir Hussain, George Harrison, Jefferson Starship, Robert Rich, War, Gamelan Mitra Kusuma, Anugama, The Heptones, Frank Zappa, nfc, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Baxter, Roger Powell, Brian Eno – David Byrne, david byrne, Constance Demby

Another Monday-I have a cold, so I took stuff last night. Hard to get up-it’s cool at night, which is nice. A phone meeting, code review. Stuff got done, but not everything. Home, try to tidy, dinner, S to bed, a little work. Bed, with a little more.

Up, no problem, cold is fading, to work, need to leave early to help E with dentist’s. So, fail drawing blood, walk, train, bus, waiting in dentist’s office. Mall for Jamba Juice, home. Work, looking for S, dinner, S to bed, up late with the thing.

Page 23, Sentence 5: “A 1996 article entitled “India’s Child Slaves,” in the International Herald Tribune, notes that 15 million children in India work eleven to twelve hours daily in dangerous conditions, and are beaten if they try to escape.”, The Twilight of American Culture.

Links: Earth’s Oceans Heating Up Much Faster Than Scientists Expected, Pillars of American Society Show Their Incompetence, But They Don’t Care, The Country Simply Can’t Go On Like This, These 10 Charts Will Show You The Danger Of Climate Change, Why Economic Inequality Is Not a Bigger Political Issue, I Want My Religion Back – You Can Keep the Ugly Baggage, Resisting Empire for More Than Four Decades

Listening to: Tool, Dreams Of Gaia, 311, KMFDM, imago meccano, Primus, Jefferson Starship, The Umma Project, Anthrax, Blue Oyster Cult, Brand X, Blue Man Group, u2, Sneaker Pimps, Harold Budd, Morphine, Oingo Boingo, Anne Dudley, Peter Gabriel, Philip Glass, Touch 33, ZZ Top, Fantômas Melvins Big Band, Mogwai, Flores, mystified, Lee Perry, Pink Floyd, Peter Gabriel, Fripp & Eno, Jeffrey Fayman & Robert Fripp, Schumann, Steve Roach, Tuxedomoon, Tori Amos, Augustus Pablo meets The Upsetter, Peter Gabriel, Darshan Ambient, Beethoven, Alva Noto, Residents, Allan Holdsworth, Peter Gabriel, Fripp & Eno, The Cynic Project

It’s Thursday. Again, the week has disappeared. Lots of traffic, oddly running trains. Meeting, work, meeting. I’m collapsing in slow motion. We’ll see how far E got on the apt. Another long meeting. I have a feeling March or April 2015 will be a very pleasant month-it’s going to be torture until then.

Friday…busy last night getting things better for sleeping. Woke up with a sore throat. E broke a tooth yesterday, has to wait until Tues to get it fixed. Meetings and stuff-a demo and a thing is slow that was fast last night.
Up late on a Friday-easy home, a problem with a change, dinner, S to bed, the thing.
And now, Sunday night. Very tired and I have a cold. Meh. Lazy Saturday, Got a really nice new to us TV, shop, Rigoberto’s, library. Put TV in.Sunday-church-C dragged his feet & won, meeting, helped R run website, home, clean up a bit, S to bed.

Links: How American parenting is killing the American marriage, Why Fundamentalist Christians Fear Intellectualism, Texas State Sen. Charles Perry Says Separation Of Church And State Is Like The Holocaust, The middle class is poorer today than it was in 1989, Erik Rush: Round Up Muslims And Throw Them In Concentration Camps, Has Neoliberalism Turned Us All Into Psychopaths?, The Republican Party Is Becoming The New Confederacy, The Geography of the Seven Deadly Sins, The American family is a myth

Listening to: Gershwin, eneftze, Tao Te Ching, bill bruford, Fiona Apple, Steve Winwood, Rage Against The Machine, J. S. Bach, zyzzybalubah, Shubert, Philip Glass, K.M.F.D.M., Constance Demby, Steve Roach & Vir Unis, Allan Holdsworth, Japan, David Sylvian, Todd Rundgren’s Utopia, Dead Can Dance, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Adam Trainer, Grateful Dead, Steve Roach, Frank Zappa, Salt, The Tibetan Book of the Dead, Bowie, Wendy Carlos, Björk, Pere Ubu, Peter Gabriel, Rage Against The Machine, Bitplasma Division, Hooverphonic, Genesis, Pink Floyd, Peter Gabriel, Arcticology, Talking Heads, Ivo Malec, rakombinacje, Enya, Supercharger, Fripp & Eno, Rage Against The Machine, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, attack attack attack, Constance Demby, Deftones, Tool, Karawitan, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Oregon, Hilliard Ensemble/Jan Garbarek, Latin Playboys, Brian Eno, Toots & The Maytals, Beck

Another Sunday. Up, church, Goodwill, Taco Bell, home, lunch.

I’m tired, dizzy and wiggly tummy. Don’t know why-is it the walking? Or just being here? I can’t tell. Anyways, they say she comes on a pale horse, but I’m sure I hear a train. I knew a guy once who was very impressed that I knew all the words for the 2nd half of the Lamb.

So, you know how people are, when it’s all gone much too far.

Monday disappeared into the past-home, laundry, dinner, dishes, S to bed, TV. Bed. Up today, phone meeting on the bus. Back at it. I’m completely at sea, and drowning. Another meeting.

Home, E has the house turned over, moving stuff around in the bedroom. Pizza for dinner, blew off gamelan.

Links: We Brought it on Ourselves: A Timeline of Choices We’ve Made to Increase Inequality, Longterm Democratic strategy is “pathetic”, Building an Ark for the Anthropocene, Noam Chomsky—Infuriating and Necessary, ‘Don’t You Dare Tell Me to Check My Privilege’, How the Super Rich Conceal Their Wealth and Perpetuate Staggering Inequality, Pope Francis: You Can’t Use Religion To Justify Violence, Can Civilization Survive “Really Existing Capitalism”?, Time to Drive a Stake Through the Heart of United States Exceptionalism, What’s Really Destroying the American Middle Class, Corporations and the Richest Americans Viscerally Oppose the Common Good

Listening to: Anne Clark, The Residents, Genesis, The Residents, Deftones, Cornelius, R Carlos Nakai, Sly & Robbie, Peter Gabriel, Djinnestan, Benedictine Monks of Santo Domingo de Silos, White Zombie, Frank Zappa, The Orb, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Anugama, Portishead, Brian Eno, Renaldo and the Loaf, Mozart, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Babe The Blue Ox, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Robert Rich, Peter Gabriel, Constance Demby, Philip Glass, Rush, Aaron Ximm, Peter Gabriel, Tori Amos, Steve Roach & Vidna Obmana, Peter Gabriel, Mystified, art bears, Frank Zappa, Gamelan Mitra Kusuma, Todd Rundgren, Brian Eno, elipsis.one, Daniel Lanois, Haydn, Frank Zappa, Henry Cow, Thomas Dolby, Steve Reich, Husker Du, Talvin Singh, Anne Dudley, Metallica, King Crimson, Todd Rundgren, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, Alastair Galbraith, The Tibetan Book of the Dead, C.P. McDill, Penguin Cafe Orchestra, Satomi Saeki And Alcvin Takegawa Ramos, Frank Zappa, gamelan, Jeff Beck, Alice in Chains, Bangles, Frank Zappa, Bhagavad Gita, bosto, Tibetan Monks, Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross, Primus, Tori Amos, Mannfred Mann’s Earth Band, Brand X, Steve Roach, Pink Floyd, Gamelan, David Isaacs, Tuxedomoon, Shakti, The Aphex Twin, Darshan Ambient, Rush, Tuu, Frank Zappa, The Jimi Hendrix Experience