Another week slips away-I haven’t touched NALEO stuff-hopefully this weekend. I also want to fly & do my wash, as well as get my car in the shop. Well, the day is almost ended, another busy day-peed the morning away, visited Custom, bought some stuff at Fry’s, food shopped, and the usual fantasies and frustrations of everyday life…I did successfully resist temptation…
It’s Monday-Memorial day FWIW…Last week ended up as the usual-frantic work, drinking at night. I don’t remember sk8ing home on Fri., and woke up with a MASSIVE hangover, and missed a deadline-this is a MAJOR problem. So…I’m stopping the weeknights out, the partying at Adi’s, etc. I’m restarting the morning/evening stuff, and hopefully even the weekly schedule. I need to tighten the screws on my life, and NOW. I also realized several things over the past two weeks, but not to say here yet. Enough. I need to get this stuff done, and that’s it!
Well, this time at least I’m picking this up sooner–what’s happening is that I don’t use this computer much-I seem to be on the road a lot lately… What’s up? Sunday was a wash-laze, laze. I thought about going to see Candye Kane-didn’t. Monday was WORK until 7, ‘rents, Blue, at Adi’s until 3 or so. Tuesday was off, ACLU, gamelan. Today is work, again. Just picked up weenie roast tix-08Th row! Now, the question is: who will I take???
Guess what-I haven’t picked this up for ANOTHER THREE WEEKS…So what else is new. I’ve been so busy, but with a complete lack of early-morning work, motivation or direction. In someways I’m free running… So what has happened? Work, as usual, laze, as usual, spi stuff, as usual, the Blue, as usual, Adi/Wolf’s, as usual, I bought a notebook, some music & some perfume. I’m becoming more female by the day. Just a matter of time before I start wearing dresses… I’m having some interesting spi stuff. I can access all points up to the eye chakra, though just access, no real balance or control or ability. I have to force myself back to the heart, as that’s where I REALLY need to balance everything out. It’s working, though I have some difficulty controlling the upward flow-I’m so used to just letting it go up without bounds-PRACTICE… See ‘ya
Well, another weekend past-and I did squat. grrrr… Friday was the Blue-Adi’s-we went over to the abandoned building next door-way kOOl + the usual spi shit. Home at 5am, sleep all day Sat, worked Sunday. I HATE my life…
Well, well, well. It’s Friday, and it’s been THREE weeks since I picked up THIS. No matter. My life is finally settling into something of a lull again. The major part of RDS is done, the NALEO project is winding down, and it’s time to bill for March (three weeks late.) So what has happened in three weeks? Not much-work, work, work, kite flying, gamelan, Blue Cafe. The usual shit… I blew up my PC after getting high with a guy from gamelan class. I had two small trips and freaked out after the second. It is SO wierd-all this psi shit goes on, and it’s either all in my head or no one else can perceive it. BIG BANG BABY… No more of THAT for a while (yeah, right…) Sis’s b’day-I’m finally sending her xmas presents…NOT
Another work week almost done. The infamous RDS project is almost finished, and two other ones loom. I was able to take a nice mid-afternoon nap, which I haven’t done in a while. Unfortunately, Chris at ACLU is having more serious problems with his Win95 system, so I may have to deal with that. Not much else going on-laze, laze. My homebrew is getting better by the week. I’m still thinking of the crushes I have, which is never very good for my mood. Oh well. Next day.
Wednesday-busy week-my project is behind, but I’m making progress…ACLU and Levy, virii, screwed up installs and the usual. Went to the Blue tonight-too late to see Diana (sigh), but good chats and a nice Eileen type, even though she hung out with the drummer…My life sucks-I NEED female companionship.
Well, here is it Sunday might and the project isn’t done-oh well. I spent Saturday flying kites and watching a kite tournament. I got sunburned as well. Went to the Blue, the Fabulous Thunderbirds played. I finally talked a bit to Janey, and with another girl…I’m finally getting back into it after Marybelle… Went over to Adi’s afterwards-stayed late, late, late & smoked and drank with some wierd straight guy & Adi. Got up hungover, slept ’til 2 PM. Lazed the whole rest of the day away. The stuff with that girl is heartening-maybe I’ll have a girlfriend soon.
Friday night spent at home-jel & online-work during the day. I’m having a lot of difficulty doing this project-all the pot I’ve smoked over the years, I guess. At least my beer tastes good…