The new year isn’t so new after all

Ack. Another post already! I have nothing to say. It’s the new year, and I’m trepidacious, both personally and as a society. Time well tell. “Waiting brings fullness.” I read that book many times, wishing I could have Michael’s powers. Still kinda do, but I realize the awesome responsibility that accompanies them-now all I want is time to develop what I have, and the ability to do that (read ca$h). So tip the writer!

Saturday. Spent too much money-we’re in deep this month again-send us $$$, please and thank you.

So. W/o last night, sleep in, tidy, shop. Writing this on an iPad from work-so easy and elegant.
Christmas Eve-church, freezing rain, then snow! Nap, sort of, w/o, fondue for dinner, walk outside with M, shower, laundry. We’re going to watch Alien: Covenant. It wasn’t bad.

Christmas was…Christmas. At least S didn’t get up super early. So, opened presents-got Dune!, some other stuff. Lazed, napped, dinner, bed. Up today, work-started on the new project, setup, ready to go. Dishes, laundry, watch skiing, bed. Up, work, kids to dentist, more work. Laundry, dishes. Thurs.-work, dentist-not as good as the kids, but nice clean teeth! Fri., work, shop, w/o w/o M, dinner late, up late watching South Park. Up, lazy, tidy, laundry.

Sunday-New Year’s Eve, church, M to libe, Fubonn, pickup M, shop, w/o, dinner, watch New York ball drop. Quiet New Year’s Day-had to go out suddenly at 8 PM to get snow boots for S. Back to work today-forgot to do something over the break…and it’s fragile, and slow. Friday-started early, which means leaving early, which means home early. M is sick, E is sick, I hope I don’t get sick. Dreamed about making out with Linda F.

And it’s Monday. Pretty quiet weekend, skipped w/o Friday, lazy Sat., church Sun., libe, shop, lazy, worked out solo, bed, up, work. home, dinner, watch skiing, bed. Schiffrin is on another level.

Links. brighter side: It’s Not Our Job to Choose Who Deserves Help, Positive Things That Happened In 2017 For People Tired Of Negative News, A high school football team took a knee and then all hell broke loose. Not so bright: A Year With Trump, Donald Trump is a dangerously weak president, Is Trump an ‘Aspiring Despot’ or a ‘Bumbling Showman’? Why Not Both?, Damage Bigly, Seymour Melman and the New American Revolution, 5 Big Myths Sold by the Defenders of Capitalism, It’s Been an Open Secret All Along

Page 23, Sentence 5: “That’s number six this week alone.”, Alone Against Tomorrow

Listening to:

Jefferson Starship, The Band, Nathan Youngblood (with Steve Roach), Black Sabbath, Material, George Clinton, Jefferson Starship, Jane’s Addiction, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Material, Veruca Salt, Motörhead, The Black Iris Militia, Orbital, Biosphere, Bill Bruford, Harold Budd & Brian Eno, Megadeth, Public Image Ltd, Rush, Steven Halpern, Salt, Gamelan, Aphex Twin, Afrika Bambaataa, Brian Eno, Alexei Borisov, Thomas Dolby, Talvin Singh, Bartok, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Earth, I-Tal, Psychic TV, Madrugada 8, The Future Sound Of London, Babe The Blue Ox, Tori Amos, Jakszyk & Fripp and Collins, Anugama, Return to Forever, Blue Man Group

“It’s the most horrible time of the year”

As my blog is more like a recitation of my life as it happens than it is a “blog”, it starts out as tbd. Then life happens, and the tbd gets filled in. I’m feeling very tbd right now. I always start with a comment, then the recap, then links, p23s5 and listening. It works, but kinda boring. I suppose I could comment at length, but that takes energy, and I’m feeling drained lately.
I guess the title says it all. I like to make up “alternate” lyrics to songs, and Christmas songs are ripe for it. There’s more to this one, and worse. I had a chat with M about this. He’s getting into cool stuff lately, and I’m teaching him t’ai chi too.

It’s cold but no snow. E, S, M and S’s class went to the zoo, which was empty except for them. E got me a new winter coat and ushanka hat that’s very warm. Home, w/o w/o M, dinner, shower, bed. I used to take showers rarely, but now that I’m working out, I need to take them post workout. Weds., gamelan-last one until mid-Jan., home, dinner, carry S to bed, bed. Blew off cleaning the kitchen. Was very windy overnight-woke up a few times hearing it. Work-starting on the new project. Net neutrality is gone, Roy Moore lost-win one, lose one.

And it’s Friday. I don’t think this will be an enjoyable weekend-I have to get out the Christmas boxes from the outside closet, and one of my molars lost a big chunk from its front. Sat, and no tree, though I did get the Christmas box out of the outside closet. W/o w/M last night, E was asleep early, S very late. Laundry, smoothies today, then shop, get C from friends’, look for a tree. Home, dinner, E in bed early, S a decent bedtime, laundry, play the Kronos a bit, bed. Sun., church, pick out tree, M to libe, back home, pick up M, deliver E & S to Nutcracker downtown, shop, home, w/o w/M, pick up E & S, dinner, shower, bed. Up, to dentist’s-need a crown. The filling is OK, so I can get by until, but still…

Weds., pretty quiet. 3 interviews for a new person, get to go home early today! W/o last night-M did negative arms. Up early, in early, home early…the tree is decorated, tidy, dinner, bed. The tax bill passed, but the U.N. rejected the Jerusalem thing-win one, lose one, again. OK, so, Friday, again. At least this is the start of a long weekend and wfh next week (for a few days, at least).

I had one of those dreams last night. No aliens, but right down into the underworld. It was black, and there were voices, and I was falling. I woke up once I reached some sort of “not feeling like I was falling but still falling” state. I laid there watching a movie coming out of a portal and a jagged hole inside it. Sort of like the TEX event, but not, as it was definitely cartoonish and cycled.

Links. brighter side:A High School Runner Helped A Struggling Marathoner, Iceland Asked Its Teens Why They Binge Drink, What We All Need To Remember About Teenagers. Not so bright: The U.S. is Not a Democracy, It Never Was, Millennials are Screwed (they’re not the only ones…I’m a job loss or disaster away from it too, plus no retirement savings at all), Fredo in the White House, Donald Trump’s Holiday Gift to America, The Counter-Revolution, Dear White Evangelicals: An Intervention Letter, Reflections on Trump and Corporate Totalitarianism

Page 23, Sentence 5: “I had to go to work the next day but I didn’t feel at all tired.”, Clear Your Clutter with Feng Shui

Listening to:

Philip Glass, Laurie Anderson, Tchaikovsky, Fiona Apple, Melvins, Sneaker Pimps, ZZ Top, Veruca Salt, Christophe Gluck, Brian Eno, Annansy Cisse, The Clash, Megadeth, Zakir Hussain, Fred Frith, Heart, Philip Glass, Brian Eno, Jeff Beck, Allan Holdsworth, John Zorn, Sigur Rós, Curved Air, Ustad Zakir Hussain, Eno-Byrne, The Future Sound of London, Robert Fripp, Peru , The Laziest Men on Mars, De Facto, Brian Eno (x3), Veruca Salt, The Beatles, Yellow Magic Orchestra, Philip Glass, Deftones, Todd Rundgren, K.M.Krebs, Sunn O))), Donnie Iris, Sigur Rós, Melvins, Todd Rundgren, Jimi Hendrix, The Allman Brothers Band, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Berbil, Peter Gabriel, Bulgarian State Radio & Television Female Vocal Choir, Robert Rich, Rush, Australian Aborigines, Gamelan, Benedictines of Mary, Heart, Giacomo Puccini, Adam And The Ants, Nathan Youngblood (with Steve Roach), U2, Tom Waits, Beastie Boys, Philip Glass, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Loren Nerell, George Clinton, Skinny Puppy, Peter Gabriel, ZZ Top, The Clash, Afrika Bambaataa, Pink Floyd, Schumann, Primus, Thomas Dolby, Genesis, Larry Tyrrell, Yello, ZZ Top, Throbbing Gristle, Samuel Barber, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Camel, Laurie Anderson, Robert Rich, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Constance Demby, avn

The holiday season?

Monday of a very cash-poor week. I just used up all my savings to pay rent. bleh. Quiet weekend-w/o, quiet Sat., Snowpiercer (E had seen it already, M liked it a lot), church-filming Xmas thing, tired, shop with S, w/o, dinner late. S had trouble sleeping (Mon. too-she slept on the chair in our room). Work, home, laundry, dinner, bed-watched skiing, rinse, repeat.

I don’t know how I feel right now-we’re in such desperate money straits, and politics, but everything else isn’t bad-I’m pretty healthy, I have a well-paying job, the kids are fine, E is better than she was, we have a place to live and food and all the rest, which is a lot better than an awful lot of people can say…I still wish I had a cushion, and retirement money, and a great big pile of money would be nice. One can dream-I just have to keep moving forward until.

Gamelan Weds., up late eating, cleaning the kitchen, finding S’s stuffed bunny when she came back to our room to sleep. Up, tired, actually napped a bit on the bus in. Hassle getting home, dinner, S to bed, watch curling, fold some laundry, kitchen, bed, up, got early bus, but didn’t make the connection…E coming to pick me up. And…Monday. Pretty slow weekend-drove home, w/o Fri., clean Sat., S to overnight, watched Martian with E, watch skiing, church Sun., dropped E off at Sat. Market, got S, libe, home, shop, get M, shop, home, dinner, w/o, eat, shower, bed. Hard to stay asleep-napped a little on the way in today. And on the way home.

Links: back to political-I hope I find some “on the brighter side” links… Before Our Very Eyes, Trump Is Undoing the Work of Our Country’s Founders,

Page 23, Sentence 5: “The lightning sought our Ur-humans, Seranis put in.”, Beyond the Fall of Night

Listening to:

Benedictine Monks of Santo Domingo de Silos, Tchaikovsky, Tibetan Monks, Tom Tom Club, Deben Bhattacharya, Aphex Rock, Slayer, Brian Eno, peru, Golden Earring, The Blasters, vanity 6, Brian Eno, Sonic Youth, Kraton Yogyakarta, Vidna Obmana, STSI Denpasar, Oregon, Throbbing Gristle, Brian Eno, Dissidenten, Gaden Shartse Monastery, Tchaikovsky, Veruca Salt, Robert Rental, Utopia, Mahavishnu Orchestra, Deben Bhattacharya, alastair galbraith, Dead Can Dance, bartok, Venerable Showers of Beauty, The Polyphonic Spree, gamelan, Brian Eno, Kaminari Synthesis, david byrne, Deftones, Claypool Lennon Delirium, North Indian, Tom Tom Club, Public Image Ltd, Vangelis, Collection, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Poe, Oingo Boingo, Brand X, John Coltrane, Faure, gamelan, Brian Eno, Jethro Tull, mayfairgrin, throbbing gristle, Philip Glass, Suicidal Tendencies, Rage Against The Machine, Built to Spill, Fripp and Eno, Todd Rundgren, Robert Fripp, Deuter, Rush, Material, William Edge, King Crimson, Anugama, Mystified, Brian Eno, New Order, Lou Harrison, art of noise, Jefferson Starship, Harold Budd, Anne Clark, Brian Eno, J. S. Bach, Brahms, Eno-Byrne, Pere Ubu, Throbbing Gristle, Philip Glass, Anugama, Genesis, Teges Kanyinan, u2, Joseph Kingma, Cream, fIREHOSE, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Oregon, Peter Gabriel, Mickey Hart, Roger Eno, Todd Rundgren, Jakszyk & Fripp and Collins, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Earth, A Beautiful Machine, Steve Winwood, Henry Wolff and Nancy Hennings, Zen Savauge, Primus, Thomas Dolby, Genesis, Larry Tyrrell, Yello, ZZ Top, Throbbing Gristle, Samuel Barber, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Camel, Laurie Anderson, Robert Rich, Karlheinz Stockhausen, avn

Broke, please tip the writer!!!

Please tip the writer.

Yet another blog post. They’ll just keep coming, until, I have no idea until. Until I die, I guess. I was one of the first, and after almost 22 years, it’s just a part of my life. WordPress certainly makes it easier…until 2016, it was all by hand-edit file, change link info on month and year boundaries, upload. Now it’s edit via web anywhere. Need to take regular backups, though.

Gamelan tonight, worked out with M last night, late to bed. Watched slalom and cycling while cleaning the kitchen. Gamelan was fine-there’s a mouse in the room. Health insurance is insanely costly. Looks like I’m working over the Christmas break on a new project… Rainy, home, yummy Waffle House hash brown bowl dinner, but I prefer loose hash browns rather than patties. S to bed, watched cycling and short track while cleaning the kitchen. South Park with M too.

It’s Friday! I’m looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow-this week has been late nights busy cleaning up after dinner. Here it is Monday-not a bad weekend, but too short. Long one coming… OK. So, workout with M Friday night-negative legs. Sleep in, clean, practice keyboard until a flooded bathroom had to be dealt with. Clogged toilet plus sticky valve equals many wet towels. Cleaned it up, unclog, done, except for the washing of towels.
Church Sun., with S to market & libe, wash towels, M to libe, pick up E, pick up M & shop, workout, dinner, bed. Hard to sleep-rain is very loud outside our wall. S left a plate out and has tons of bugs in her room-it freaked her out-she ended up in our room. Up, to work, forgot my laptop, back home, an hour late in. It’s Wednesday, 2 extra days off-that means 2 days less money-no bueno. Workout last night, making progress, but I dislike the stationary bike-maybe I need to change it up… And I did-treadmill now-I was doing that in the long ago, so it’s OK-I’m actually moving up weights as well.

And now another week-it’s Thursday-busy at work with problems. Gamelan last night. Thanksgiving was OK-sleeping in, ham, tried to keep things clean, not much other than the usual. We’re out of ca$h for the next week. All the bills are or will be paid, we just have nothing left after doing that. Please tip the writer. Thanks!

I think the work problem is solved. Friday night-worked out-teaching M t’ai chi, dinner, laundry. Ripping-need to watch Snowpiercer.

Links: none to be had-it’s just too depressing. I need to reinstate the “on a positive note” links…I suppose I could post kitten or puppy videos… Here’s one! The Boston Declaration, Doing good may not always feel great…and that’s okay (my HS classmate Bob).

Page 23, Sentence 5: “Just keep collecting your random scribbles on anything you can write on.”, Your Idea Starts Here

Listening to:

The B-52’s, Guy Reibel, Adrian Belew, Tuu, Philip Glass, Veruca Salt, Venerable Showers of Beauty, bill bruford, Brian Eno and Jah Wobble, Afrika Bambaataa feat.John Lydon, Teges Kanyinan, Todd Rundgren, Schoenberg, Robert Rich, Genesis, Earth, Bob Marley, Philip Glass, Anoushka Shankar & Karsh kale, Peter Tosh, Gong, China, Emergency Broadcast Network, Throbbing Gristle, Dead Can Dance, The Crystal Method, Lynyrd Skynyrd, u2, Black Sabbath, c.krumov, Schumann, Roger Eno, Philip Glass, Hawkwind, Robert Rich, Rush, Oingo Boingo, Roger Powell, Primus, Edie Brickell and New Bohemians, Rage Against The Machine, Skinny Puppy, Tchaikovsky, Veruca Salt, Todd Rundgren, Filter, Veruca Salt, Robert Johnson, William Orbit, Amadou Diagne, Ali Farke Touré, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Hooverphonic, Philip Glass, The Orb, Helmet, The Black Iris Militia, Vangelis, The Chemical Brothers, Philip Glass, Grateful Dead, Material, Veruca Salt, David Sylvian, Fred Frith, Kansas, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Michael Stearns, Anthrax, Henry Cow, Constance Demby, Veruca Salt, Steve Roach, Harold Budd & Brian Eno, Ray, Cream, Tchaikovsky, Veruca Salt, Henry Cow, Greg Baumont, Buddy Guy, Psychic TV, Yo La Tengo, Brian Eno – David Byrne, Brand X, The Band, Angus Carlyle, David Rhodes, Mark Hamn, The Human League, Adam Trainer, art of noise, Melvins, Gentle Giant, Mevlevi Sufi, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Harold Budd, Diamanda Galas, Beastie Boys, Bill Bruford, James Gang, Gamelan, Byron Metcalf, The Waitresses, Shubert, Djinnestan, Brainscapes, The Art of Noise, Steve Roach & David Hudson & Sarah Hopkins, Martha Goldstein, Curved Air, Deftones, Philip Glass, Oingo Boingo, Brand X, John Coltrane, Faure, Robert Rental, Gamelan, Brian Eno, Jethro Tull, mayfairgrin, throbbing gristle, Suicidal Tendencies, Built to Spill, Fripp and Eno, Todd Rundgren, Robert Fripp, Deuter, Stereolab, Rush, Material, William Edge, King Crimson, Aphex Rock, Anugama, Mystified, Brian Eno, New Order, Lou Harrison, Jefferson Starship, Harold Budd, Anne Clark, Brian Eno, J. S. Bach, Eno-Byrne, Pere Ubu, Throbbing Gristle, Anugama, Genesis, Brian Eno, Teges Kanyinan, u2, Joseph Kingma, Cream, fIREHOSE, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Oregon, Peter Gabriel, Mickey Hart, Roger Eno, Todd Rundgren, Jakszyk & Fripp and Collins, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Earth, A Beautiful Machine, Steve Winwood, Henry Wolff and Nancy Hennings, Public Image Ltd, Zen Savauge, Primus, Thomas Dolby, Genesis, Larry Tyrrell, Yello, ZZ Top, Throbbing Gristle, Samuel Barber, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Camel, Laurie Anderson, Robert Rich, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Constance Demby, avn

The weather in November is…

Sat night-DST is over. Cleaned, shop, fish & chips, home. E’s birthday, anniversary just past. Sun., church, S to play, brunch on Alberta, browse, show, shop, home, dinner. M is unwell, and better now. We worked out yesterday-hit M with a negative 3 set leg workout with progressive heavy weights-he handled it well, we’ll see how sore he is today (can you see I used to do this?). And he was only a bit sore, except for glutes, which were still sore Thurs. I think it was an effective workout-need to boost the intensity just a bit. Arms tonight.

And it’s Friday, no Gamelan Weds., pretty quiet. Cold and rainy, just the usual sort of November weather here. Workout with M-negative arms. Quiet Sat., S to overnight party, Chinese dinner, church Sun., pick up S, shop, home, workout-M has sore arms. Hard to sleep-up, to work-banged my knee on the train-very painful, that. I may have work over shutdown…or may not. Such is how it goes here.

Links: How Television, Twitter and Trump Created a Post-Smart America, America Breaks Down: The Anatomy of a National Psychosis

Page 23, Sentence 5: “It may seem simpler to suggest that “atout” is short for “bon atout”, meaning “good for anything”, because a Trump will take any card of any suit.”, The Book of Thoth

Listening to:

Nine Inch Nails, Todd Rundgren, Earth, The Melevi Ensemble, Harold Budd, Hawkwind, U2, Monks of Gyütö Tantris College, Philip Glass, Carlos Santos, Anoushka Shankar & Karsh kale, Amorphous Androgynous, Gyorgy Ligeti, Vangelis, Black Sabbath, Gamelan Mitra Kusuma, China, Hawkwind, Vangelis, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Roger Powell, Dead Can Dance, Weezer, Anonymous 4, Grateful Dead, A Beautiful Machine, Alexei Borisov, Jonathon Storm, Fishbone, Rusty Crutcher, Fripp & Eno, Megadeth, Molly Hatchet, Ravi Shankar, Emergency Broadcast Network, New Order, Laurie Anderson, Throbbing Gristle, Funkadelic, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Emergency Broadcast Network, Sneaker Pimps, The Flaming Lips, Edie Brickell & New Bohemians, French Frith Kaiser Thompson, Deftones, Romeo Void, The B-52’s, Eno-Byrne, Material, Talking Heads, bartok, Yo-Yo Ma & Emanuel Ax, Massive Attack, Melvins, Todd Rundgren, Steve Roach, Jefferson Starship, Japan, Tchaikovsky, King Crimson, Gentle Giant, Allan Holdsworth, Todd Rundgren, Brian Eno & Larajii, Mogwai, Vidna Obmana, Blue Oyster Cult, Lou Harrison, Sly & Robbie, A Beautiful Machine, The Residents, Melvins, U2, The Orb, Adam And The Ants, C.P. McDill, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Soft Machine, U2, Jefferson Starship, Thomas Dolby, Miles Davis Quintet, John Coltrane, Rush, Al Gromer Khan, Brian Eno and Jah Wobble, K.M.Krebs, Orbital, Benedictines of Mary, Kansas, Jean Michel Jarre, Godspeed You! Black Emperor, Todd Rundgren, Gary Numan, Kraftwerk, Coyote Oldman, A Beautiful Machine, Thomas Dolby, Underworld, Peter Gabriel, Veruca Salt, art of noise, Jonn Serrie, Weezer, David Hudson, Zakir Hussain, Primus, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Brian Eno & David Byrne, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Bulgarian State Radio & Television Female Vocal Choir, Beastie Boys, Wishcollapse, David Arkenstone, Lagrima, Brian Eno, Chris Breemer, Anugama, Philip Glass, Brian Eno

The slide to Christmas begins.

Here goes another weekend…I need to practice my musical instruments. Enchantment tonight-not sure I’ll go.

Didn’t go. Worked out w/M instead, in spite of my sore back. That was a mistake. So, up late Fri., cleaned Sat. to Eno, watched his cool films, E & S to play practice Sun., shop, home, pick them up & deliver M to libe, cleanup, bins, Tea Chai Tea, home, dinner, Pulp Fiction, bed. Prep S, back to bed, work, laundry, vacuum, S to dentist’s, libe, where I’m working. Power was out at work, so glad I didn’t go in. Pick up E, shop, home, dinner, M locked his stuff in the spa, bed, up. Back still hurts, going to lay off any exercise until it gets better.

Halloween-E met me at the Goodwill, no C or S, Super Burrito, M put on my barong mask to greet trick-or-treaters, watched the day after tomorrow for the millionth time. Gamelan, getting cooler, and now it’s Friday. S has a play this weekend, C is getting good grades and the teachers say he’s doing well. My back is recovering, but still not 100%, so not workouts.

Links: America is facing an epistemic crisis

Page 23, Sentence 5: “Generally, people don’t like to rethink really basic assumptions.”, Thinking

Listening to:

J.S. Bach, Sigur Rós, Philip Glass, Yo La Tengo, Veruca Salt, E. Cook, Laurie Anderson, Chris Breemer, Anthrax, The Residents, Vidna Obmana, Gamelan Orchestra of the Yogyakarta Royal Palace, Morphine, Kodály Quartet, art bears, Genesis, Primus, Robert Fripp, Robert Rich, Laurie Anderson, The Laziest Men on Mars, Yo-Yo Ma & Emanuel Ax, R Carlos Nakai, Heath Yonaites & KM Krebs, Tom Waits, The Clash, Black Sabbath, Sneaker Pimps, Mozart, Claypool Lennon Delirium, avn, Jeff Beck, Philip Glass, Henry Cow, Mystic Eyes, Todd Rundgren, Cream, gamelan, Babe The Blue Ox, Earth, The Future Sound Of London, Black Sabbath, Watazumi Doso, Neu!, Arcticology, The Aphex Twin, Curved Air, Fripp & Eno, Kraton Ngayogyakarta Hadiningrat, Roger Powell, Mystified, Neil Young, Jethro Tull, Time Zone, Jakszyk & Fripp and Collins, Ambrosia, Philip Glass, Michael Stearns

Hello Helloween

Stuff to go here isn’t known yet. Check back in a minute or two. Or three. Still nothing yet. It’s time for lunch. Lunch came and went.

Home, kid to show, gamelan-still lacking people, home, dinner, picked up kid from show, which didn’t end at 10:30 as advertised. The headliner STARTED at 10:30, so I sat in the parking lot of the Bossanova Ballroom for 45 mins. The security guy recognized me from when I dropped C off, and was cool with it. In fact, he told C that I was out there… I had a headache all day, and my back is sore, so it wasn’t fun. Plus also I took a pain killer that turned out to be a PM version. Ack.

OK. So up early to move the car-they’re striping the parking lot-a spot right across the way. S woke up early and was at the foot of the bed-I kicked her, not knowing she was there, then had her get into our bed, and it was cute when I went in there later-she was reading with mom. Almost missed the bus. Trying to meditate on the train. Need to practice my instruments.

And it’s Friday-major deployment going in tomorrow…and it went OK, barring minor hiccups. Up late Sat., C had a thing-poor guy. Been there, and it’s tough. E to a thing, libe with S, bins, watched Visitors-I love Reggio’s work, but this is so slow, almost like meditation on film. I was busy making dinner and cleaning, and it was like, face, building, face, building, ok-creepy clown sculpture, trees. Not conducive to enjoying the film. Work late Sat., church Sun., more work stuff, clean. No practice, but the house is clean and laundry and dishes are well in hand. It’s Weds., rainy. M spilled tea on his laptop, E got another that was set up badly. Worked out last night, gamelan today. Again, a small group. Missed the bus this morning…it’s rainy, I’m tired. And now I have a headache. Home, dinner, Harry Potter, bed.

Now, Monday again. Not much happened: E has wrist problems, work-panic, home, gym, up Sat., Fry’s, lunch, home, church Sun., market, libe, home, laundry, gym, TV, etc. Hard to stay asleep, my back still hurts, hard to get around, 2 meetings today. Now Weds., worked out last night, my back still hurts some. No gamelan-M is sick. Here’s Friday again, back still not 100%, and I have a workout tonight, and Halloween Enchantment. M is at U of O for the day.

Page 23, Sentence 5: “Goods cost us far less in adjusted dollars than ever before, and Americans can choose from hundreds of different models of everything from shampoos and cell phones to flat-screen televisions.”, Life at Home in the Twenty-First Century

Listening to:

Alastair Galbraith, Björk, The Crystal Method, The Smashing Pumpkins, Bill Bruford’s Earthworks, Venerable Showers of Beauty, The Flaming Lips, David Sylvian, Rush, Gentle Giant, Darshan Ambient, Arcticology, fsol, Mogwai, Frank Zappa, Philip Glass, Kansas, Renaissance, The Humans, Herb Ernst, Brian Eno, A Beautiful Machine, Collection, Blue Oyster Cult, Hafíz Kani Karaca, Jean Michel Jarre, The Robert Fripp String Quintet, Throbbing Gristle, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Brian Eno (x2), C. Reider, Björk, Can, Time Zone, Bleep, The Who, Fishbone, The Future Sound of London, Diamanda Galas, Beastie Boys, Bill Bruford, James Gang, Gamelan, Byron Metcalf featuring Steve Roach, The Waitresses, Shubert, Djinnestan, Brainscapes, The Art of Noise, Steve Roach & David Hudson & Sarah Hopkins, Martha Goldstein, Curved Air, Deftones, Philip Glass, Oingo Boingo, Brand X, John Coltrane, Yo-Yo Ma & Kathryn Stott, Robert Rental, gamelan, Brian Eno, Jethro Tull, mayfairgrin, throbbing gristle, Philip Glass, Suicidal Tendencies, Rage Against The Machine, Built to Spill, Fripp and Eno, Todd Rundgren, Robert Fripp, Deuter, Stereolab, Rush, Material, William Edge, King Crimson, Aphex Rock, Anugama, Mystified, Brian Eno, New Order, Lou Harrison, art of noise, Jefferson Starship, Harold Budd, Anne Clark, Brian Eno, J. S. Bach, Brahms, Eno-Byrne, Pere Ubu, Throbbing Gristle, Philip Glass, Anugama, Genesis, Brian Eno, Teges Kanyinan, u2, Joseph Kingma, Cream, fIREHOSE, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Oregon, Peter Gabriel, Mickey Hart, Roger Eno, Todd Rundgren, Jakszyk & Fripp and Collins, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Earth, A Beautiful Machine, Steve Winwood, Henry Wolff and Nancy Hennings, Public Image Ltd, Zen Savauge, Primus, Thomas Dolby, Genesis, Larry Tyrrell, Yello, ZZ Top, Throbbing Gristle, Samuel Barber, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Camel, Laurie Anderson, Robert Rich, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Constance Demby, avn

What’s next?

It’s hard to say-will this be the time gun control gets pushed up to the fore? Will the shoe drop on  something else? Tom Petty and Monty Hall died, and Hef. And a bunch of people known only by their friends and families. Until now. S got the apt people to put their flags at half-staff.

Gamelan tonight-not many people showed up. Friday: office move day. Quiet weekend-M to church for interview, plant flowers, bins, church Sun., bbq, band, market, home, laundry. So, so exciting. In new cube-no window, a bit enclosed for my taste. Taking C to a show Weds. Big fires in Ca.

Links: The End of EmpireThe Growing Irrelevance of President Trump, What the Second Amendment is really about

Page 23, Sentence 5: “The no-ship and its mortal contents could only be classified as a major effort.”, Chapterhouse: Dune

Listening to:

The Residents, David Bowie, Robert Rich, Brian Eno, Supadupa Marimba Bros, Peter Tosh, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Brahms, Sigur Rós, Alemayehu Eshete, Black Sabbath, Kohachiro Miyata, Batch Gueye Band, Anonymous 4, Roger Eno, Puccini, Allan Holdsworth, Henry Cow, Gamelan, Thomas Dolby, De Facto, Brian Eno & Jon Hassell, Pink Floyd, Steve Reich, Philip Glass, Gong, Heath Yonaites & KM Krebs, Ambrosia, Eno & Byrne, Built to Spill, Tori Amos, Mekons, Djinnestan, Adam Trainer, i-tal, Slayer, Philip Glass, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Allan Holdsworth, Loren Nerell, Philip Glass, Edward Elgar, fIREHOSE, c.krumov, return to forever, Piotr Ilyitch Tchaikovsky, Satomi Saeki And Alcvin Takegawa Ramos, Gyudmed Tantric Monastery, Sunn O))), Todd Rundgren, Tori Amos, Thomas Dolby, Throbbing Gristle, Skinny Puppy, Latin Playboys, Carmelo Giudice, R Carlos Nakai, Steve Roach, Weezer, Brian Eno (x2), Veruca Salt, Shakuhachi, Jefferson Starship, Gentle Giant, Todd Rundgren, Earth, The Melevi Ensemble, Harold Budd, Hawkwind, U2, Monks of Gyütö Tantris College, Philip Glass, Carlos Santos, Anoushka Shankar & Karsh kale, Amorphous Androgynous, Gyorgy Ligeti, Vangelis, Black Sabbath, Gamelan Mitra Kusuma, Music of China, Hawkwind, Vangelis, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Roger Powell, Dead Can Dance, Weezer, Anonymous 4, Grateful Dead, A Beautiful Machine, Alexei Borisov, Various, Fishbone, Rusty Crutcher, Fripp & Eno, Megadeth, Molly Hatchet, Ravi Shankar, Emergency Broadcast Network, New Order, Laurie Anderson, Throbbing Gristle, Funkadelic, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Emergency Broadcast Network, Sneaker Pimps, The Flaming Lips, Edie Brickell & New Bohemians, French Frith Kaiser Thompson, Deftones, Romeo Void, The B-52’s, Eno-Byrne, Material, Talking Heads, bartok, Yo-Yo Ma & Emanuel Ax, Massive Attack, Melvins, Todd Rundgren, Steve Roach, Jefferson Starship, Japan, Piotr Ilyitch Tchaikovsky, King Crimson, Gentle Giant, Allan Holdsworth, Todd Rundgren, Brian Eno & Larajii, Mogwai, Vidna Obmana, Blue Oyster Cult, Lou Harrison, Sly & Robbie, A Beautiful Machine, The Residents, Melvins, U2, The Orb, Adam And The Ants, C.P. McDill, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Soft Machine, U2, Jefferson Starship, Thomas Dolby, Miles Davis Quintet, John Coltrane, Rush, Al Gromer Khan, Brian Eno and Jah Wobble, K.M.Krebs, Orbital, Benedictines of Mary, Kansas, Jean Michel Jarre, Godspeed You! Black Emperor, Todd Rundgren, Gary Numan, Kraftwerk, Coyote Oldman, A Beautiful Machine, Thomas Dolby, Underworld, Peter Gabriel, Veruca Salt, art of noise, Jonn Serrie, Weezer, David Hudson, Zakir Hussain, Primus, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Brian Eno & David Byrne, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Bulgarian State Radio & Television Female Vocal Choir, Beastie Boys, Wishcollapse, David Arkenstone, Lagrima, Brian Eno, Chris Breemer, Anugama, Philip Glass, Brian Eno

Fall, fall, fall. Fall is here.

Just don’t know. At all. I’m so tired of it. Politics, weather, endless stuff.

Ok, so weekend-meeting, C’s girlfriend over, the usual, church, more stuff. It’s Tuesday, no, Wednesday. Rainy, and some thunder! Started using the Kronos now that it’s set up. Work from home Thurs., E has a dental thing. M has the lightest schedule ever. E went through the dental thing fine-work, dinner, bed. I’m really tired. Still tired, and I’ll probably be more tired after pissing the weekend away shopping. Shopping drains my energy.

And now Monday-we’re tragically short of ca$h. Please tip. Thanks in advance. Weekend: shop, take a break, shop. That helped a little-also looking down instead of around when walking. Practice music, starting on a toy piece. C’s GF came over again. Got a coffee grinder and a machine. Sat. mkt on Sun for the Supadupa Marimba Bros., shop, more music. I’m trying to get a little practice in every day-shaku, didge, keyboard, guitar, Kronos-it really has some nice sounds. Having it out and available helps too. Now I need to do the same with exercise…

And it’s Wednesday. Lovely Fall weather. We’re moving offices end of next week-just down 2 floors for a bit, then somewhere else. They’re renovating the 9th floor to look like Quest circa 2005 at the Aliso buildings-bare ceilings with ducts and wires, polished concrete, open plan, fishbowl meeting rooms. Lots of lounging areas, though. Now all they need is the 2 story fishtank and pool table…

Friday, Puerto Rico is a mess, Mount Agung in Bali is rumbling-go here for on the ground info. I’m reading the Dune series, and there’s a lot in there from then that’s relevant now.

Weekend-worked out Fri., shop, help M, workout.

Page 23, Sentence 5: “Many among the early crowds of that winter day had noted his passage. “, Children of Dune

Listening to:

Rage Against The Machine, C. Reider, Claypool Lennon Delirium, Babe The Blue Ox, Edie Brickell & New Bohemians, Aphex Twin, Mystified, The Residents, Alice in Chains, The Crystal Method, Primus, Orbital, Constance Demby, Art Of Noise, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Steve Winwood, Rage Against The Machine, Henry Wolff, ancy Hennings, Material, Bob Marley, Brian Eno, System Of A Down, Brian Eno (x2), Gamelan, Melvins, Mountain, Turkish, Todd Rundgren’s Utopia, The Residents, Indian, Mogwai, art of noise, Yes, Philip Glass, Black Uhuru, Renaldo & The Loaf, Steve Story & Celia Bourez, Steve Reich, Bulgarian State Radio & Television Female Vocal Choir, Abdullah Ibrahim, Tom Tom Club, David Sylvian, K.M. Krebs, Philip Glass, Brian Eno, Megadeth, Tuu, Brian Eno, Dominatrix, Todd Rundgren, Kodàly and Janàcek, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Dip Tse Chok Ling Monastery, Sigur Rós, Jeffrey Fayman & Robert Fripp, Deuter, Eric Cook, Veruca Salt, Hawkwind, Karawitan, Beastie Boys, Gentle Giant, The Clash, Xpando, The Pura Paku Alaman Yogyakarta, Henry Cow, Steve Reich and Beryl Korot, Pink Floyd, Alemayehu Eshete, Stereolab, Bill Bruford, Dante Bucci, Babe The Blue Ox, Philip Glass, Alien Skull Paint, Philip Glass, J.S. Bach, Sigur Rós, Philip Glass, Yo La Tengo, Veruca Salt, E. Cook, Laurie Anderson, Chris Breemer, Anthrax, The Residents, Vidna Obmana, Gamelan Orchestra of the Yogyakarta Royal Palace, Morphine, Kodály Quartet, art bears, Genesis, Primus, Robert Fripp, Robert Rich, Laurie Anderson, The Laziest Men on Mars, Yo-Yo Ma & Emanuel Ax, R Carlos Nakai, Heath Yonaites & KM Krebs, Tom Waits, The Clash, Black Sabbath, Sneaker Pimps, Mozart, Claypool Lennon Delirium, avn, Jeff Beck, Philip Glass, Henry Cow, Mystic Eyes, Todd Rundgren, Cream, gamelan, Babe The Blue Ox, Earth, The Future Sound Of London, Black Sabbath, Watazumi Doso, Neu!, Arcticology, The Aphex Twin, Curved Air, Fripp & Eno, Gamelan, Roger Powell, Mystified, Neil Young, Jethro Tull, Time Zone, Jakszyk Fripp and Collins, Ambrosia, Philip Glass, Michael Stearns, STSI Denpasar – NIA in Bali, Jenny Bird, Fripp and Eno, Michael Stearns, Talvin Singh, Grateful Dead, Emergency Broadcast Network, U2, Radiohead, Lili De La Mora, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Amorphous Androgynous, Justin Vanderberg , Aerosmith, Alastair Galbraith, Björk, The Smashing Pumpkins, Bill Bruford’s Earthworks, Venerable Showers of Beauty, The Flaming Lips, Rush

Onward? The only way to go?

There is no going back, no matter how much you wish it. And sometimes I wish it. Other times just wishes. Don’t know what else to say-life and the world are what they are, and you have to be what you are, and work.

So, so smoky-can just barely see the St. John’s bridge from here: 9th floor of Montgomery Park. And ash everywhere. And there’s another big storm making its way across the Atlantic. Picked up a shakuhachi and Zoom recorder for $12, with a big credit from Google…pretty cool, though it took 2 years to get up to $200. Next is a case for my Kronos. Don’t need it quite yet. Weekend. Set up all the gear, books too. C’s gf came over, repacked the outside closet-mouse poop there. Big storm over Fla. Church, shop, tidy. Very tired today. Got the Zoom and the shakuhachi-nice 1.3, root end-was able to get a bitty tone after a bit of work, the Zoom works, but is a bit light-I prefer durable bits, like a SM58… S wants to play the Kronos-I let her from time to time-she really shouldn’t be playing keyboards… And now Friday-Dr’s, got a cortisone shot for my finger. It’s getting cooler in the mornings, but still a bit smoky.

Links: The First White PresidentSeason of SmokeReclaiming America’s Values

Page 23, Sentence 5: “The pony’s attention was so consumed by deciding, from moment to moment, where it should place all four of its hooves, that it seemed to forget there was an old man on its back.”, The System of the World

Listening to:

Gentle Giant, Darshan Ambient, Arcticology, fsol, Mogwai, Frank Zappa, Philip Glass, Kansas, Renaissance, The Humans, Herb Ernst, Brian Eno, A Beautiful Machine, Disturbed, Blue Oyster Cult, Hafíz Kani Karaca, Jean Michel Jarre, The Robert Fripp String Quintet, Throbbing Gristle, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Brian Eno (x2), C. Reider, Björk, Can, Time Zone, Bleep, The Who, Fishbone, Rage Against The Machine, Gamelan, The Future Sound of London, Diamanda Galas, Beastie Boys, Bill Bruford, James Gang, Gamelan, Byron Metcalf, The Waitresses, Shubert, Djinnestan, Brainscapes, The Art of Noise, Steve Roach, David Hudson & Sarah Hopkins, Martha Goldstein, Curved Air, Deftones, Philip Glass, Oingo Boingo, Brand X, John Coltrane, Faure, Robert Rental, Gamelan, Brian Eno, Jethro Tull, mayfairgrin, throbbing gristle, Philip Glass, Suicidal Tendencies, Rage Against The Machine, Built to Spill, Fripp and Eno, Todd Rundgren, Robert Fripp, Deuter, Stereolab, Rush, Material, William Edge, King Crimson, Aphex Rock, Anugama, Mystified, Brian Eno, New Order, Lou Harrison, art of noise, Jefferson Starship, Harold Budd, Brian Eno, J. S. Bach, Brahma, Eno-Byrne, Pere Ubu, Throbbing Gristle, Philip Glass, Anugama, Genesis, Brian Eno, Teges Kanyinan, u2, Schumann, Cream, fIREHOSE, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Oregon, Peter Gabriel, Mickey Hart, Roger Eno, Todd Rundgren, Jakszyk Fripp and Collins, Akashic Crow’s Nest, Earth, A Beautiful Machine, Steve Winwood, Henry Wolff and Nancy Hennings, Public Image Ltd, Zen Savauge, Primus, Thomas Dolby, Genesis, Larry Tyrrell, Yello, ZZ Top, Throbbing Gristle, Samuel Barber, Venerable Showers of Beauty, Camel, Laurie Anderson, Robert Rich, Karlheinz Stockhausen, Constance Demby, avn